sometimes my heart explodes
A page in the diary ""
Written by bluewave 7. Apr 2008 07:22 PM
Hey guys,
I feel strange. I look back to what, who, I was and I can not believe that I have survived. For the past 4 years the black dog has been chasing me and now the black dog watches me but no longer chases me.
It frightens me when I think of the times I was in such a dark place that suicide was tempting. Looking back I thank God I never did it and thank my doctors, friends and depnet for helping me through it.
Everything that has happened in my life still seems so raw. It still stings but my mind is no longer filled with noise. Thoughts no longer over flow in my mind and drive me crazy...I think, I hope, I know I am getting better.
I realize that we all deserve a second chance to live, and i MEAN REALLY START LIVING. I know we can all feel as good as I am feeling right now.
Bluewave
xxoo