PUSHING through the PAIN
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Written by bluewave 3. Apr 2008 03:57 PM
Hey Guys,
It's been awhile since I have made an entry. To update you all, I have resigned from ym stock broking job where I had an affair with my Boss who turned out to be a very aggressive drunk.
I ended the relationship last year but was still working there, however whether intimate or not he was still a very unpredictable drunk.
When I resigned a couple of months ago I kinda cracked and ended up in the clinic again for the depression. I now have a new job and feeling much better. I have also addressed my own alcohol problem and have been a lot more open to my parents and sisters.
Life is getting better, the pain from the past still hurts so much, it tears my heart up but hen I just get up, dust myself off and move on.
It's been a difficult past few months but staring my life all over again is great. I feel pure again and I want to change to be the woman I also wanted to be.
I am going back to university next semester and working til then. I feel free again, sometimes I feel ver alone but I know I can get through this.
I just have to survive this year and prove to myself that there is more to life than my past.
I want to be better, I am better and improving each day. I am no longer so obsessed about myself and now I really want to reach out to people again and help others, I feel soul coming up from hell and back into my heart again :)
Bluewave
luv you all
xxoo