'THE LETTER' continued
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Written by bluewave 29. Jan 2008 01:09 PM
This morning I had a long talk with my Boss...
Ok from the start. I had plan to give the letter last week it was sitting on his but at the last minute I grabbed it and shoved it in my bag. I was terrified and just so anxious about it. Later that night we went drinking with all the work mates and when we had some time alone I pulled it out...yes I know STUPID. I was just so relaxed from the alcohol and I saw it in my bag and yes I showed him.
As predicted he was FURIOUS, he scrunched up the letter and then told me to fuck off, screaming at me. I was so upset, my heart hurt and I knew it was stupid to give it to him but I just exploded with emotion and had to give it to him.
My manager who owns half of the company chased after me asking what was wrong, he was extremely concerned and confused, so I gave him the letter which I picked up from the floor. He was shocked and his tears swelled as he held my face, I was starting to have a panic attack and I felt my heart comong out of my chest. He told me he would support me, he said he was glad I had told him about what had happened and wished I had come to him in the beggining.
Later by text my boss apologised and this morning we had a meeting. He wanted to read the letter again. He was a lot better this time. He did try to defend himself and twist it a little but eventually we came to equal ground.
I have organised with him for me to take off 1 or 2 months off from work unpaid. I need time away form him, from the company, from the alcohol, and just sort some physical and mental issues. He was happy for me to do this and I do plan to come back after the break.
By writing down the complaint instead of verbally saying it to him as I have in the past has really made a huge positive difference.
i feel closure now :) I will take this break hopefully at the end of the week. I think I have made a dent in the stigma, ignorance and closed mindedness of this business world...well at least in my own firm.
Until next time
Bluewave
xxoo
PS: Thank you for all your comments. It has really helped and guided me when I needed it the most, cheers you guys!