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Written by bluewave 26. Dec 2006 03:59 AM

:'( so scared guys. I been having recurrent urinary tract infections. This time went to doctor and after tests it showed that I did not. He is now looking further into it because suspects I could have clyamidia. Get results on wednesday.

The thing is I was checked for HIV, clyamidia, syphilis, and something else when I was with my boyfriend of the time. It came back all clea. I got my bf to get checked for hep B and so on but not for clyamidia. he was cleared for everything else, I just never thought for him to get checked for that.

We are broken up now but that means he already had it or was cheating on me. GOD!!!!!! I so hope I don't have it, :'( I thought i tried all the necessary precautions, even made gim get tested, but seriously didn't even think of Clymadida! SHIT! I'm so upset, I feel so stupid.

Apparently I can be cured by simply taking anti biotics. But I'm not worried about that. I am worried that it may have damaged my tubes, thus making my infertile. I will be devastated if it has! I'm obviously too young for kids now but GOD I want kids in the future so bad!!!! And I if I am infected I must tell current new BF. I told him I had been checked fo everything but didn't even know about clyamidia. Oh god what will he think of me. He will think I sleep around and oh I don't know.

I thought I took all precautions, feel like a dumb stupid idiot!!!!!!!!!! I hate my ex!!! please pray for me that im not infected, I just want to die.

bluewave
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Comments from the community:

Hey Bluewave.

One step at a time, wait for the results, then assess the best course of action. I have OCD and know how hard it can be to stop obsessing about something that 'Might Be', but try hard not to focus on the worst case scenario and think about the best case scenario, and you will have a better day.

Having said all that you have every right to be angry, I know this from personal experience.

Take care.

M

Written by Deleted_User, 26. Dec 2006 07:17 AM

Hi, your doc shouldn't have said anything to you before the tests were in. Even he doesn't know until then, he's made you worry unnecessarily. It may be only something simple. Does it really make women infertile? You could find out about it on the net if you want. It maybe only be a female thing too.
Try & have a good day,
Geo

Written by Anonymous, 26. Dec 2006 10:30 AM

OUCH!

I guess its a risk we all take when we put our trust in someone. You have nothing to be ashamed of and no reason to feel stupid - that fact that you even got tested at all initially deserves credit.

Lets be honest here Bluewave - who actually ever gets tested - not that many! You did, so you did all you could, you cant be held responsible if your boyfriend didnt get tested. When he got tested for the others he would've needed a referal from the doc for the blood tests- if he was getting tested for hep B etc why didnt the doc recommend he also get tested for Clymidia????

Dont feel stupid hun, feel proud that you were sensible enough to get tested and that you discussed the matter with the b/f.

Wait for the blood test results and take it from there.

Wishing you all the best,
Gypsygirl
xxx

Written by Anonymous, 26. Dec 2006 10:38 AM

Hopefully it will be OK bluwave. Don't panic yet. Nice to see you...
Regards.

Written by Deleted_User, 26. Dec 2006 04:14 PM

Hey Bluewave,
Wait to hear back from the experts before you bring yourself to any conclusions.
Be my brave little warrior here, and just ride through this upset, and prepare yourself for a new year of progressive well-being.
I'm very proud of you for getting these tests done in the first place-most people would be too ashamed to even admit these worries to themselves-let alone discuss them with their GP and go and get them done.
Its ok to be scared when it comes to our health probs-
we all are at some point-but your'e doing something about it hun, and for that you make me proud.

Good luck,and let me know how it goes.

Sleep with angels,my little warrior,
Bryan

Written by Deleted_User, 26. Dec 2006 05:07 PM

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