OUT 4 SUMMER!
A page in the diary ""
Written by bluewave 1. Dec 2006 12:34 AM
hello my dear depnet buddies!
I was discharged from the clinic this tuesday and being home has actually been great. My sister and I decorated house for christmas and stuff. My mood has become more stable and I can notice that my thinking has changed. I make a conscious effort to challenge my negative thoughts.
Feeling real sick at the moment my psych has decreased my effexor to put me on prozac currently taking both until effexor is reduced enough. ahhhgg had to run off the train today, a stop earlier, so I could vomit in the bush...that was at 5pm now 930 and still really queazy but only vomitted once since. Hopefully side effects will pass in a couple of days.
I'm feeling real good about myself guys :) I can actually say that I love myself more and I am looking forward to getting even better and achieveing All the things I know I can do :) heehee I have to laugh because haven't felt this in years and I'm so happy
I haven't had access to net for awhile so excuse me for not supporting you guys, Ill definately read up and try and catch up on how you guys have been doing. I hope I can express to you all that I, someone who seriously thought planned and attempted to kill herself, I AM so relieved and happy and grateful that I did not. I am happy to still be around. I definately have had some real bad days and suicide crept back into my mind but what I realised is that ONE bad day does not equal EVERYTHING MY WHOLE LIFE IS BAD. No it is just one maybe two bad days but it's worth eduring because life can be so brilliant.
Life can be real damn hard at times but none of you can deny the fact that you have experience at least one great, joyful moment. It is these moments we must try to live for, to live longer so to experience more good days. I want to give hope to all of you, I want to tell you that I have started to come out the other end of the dark tunnel and life is worth living.
I love you guys
takecare
bluewave
xxoo