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It's very late, please go to bed bluewave, its gotta be better than just rehashing and revisiting sad thoughts that make you feel like shit, like shit.

It's late and you'll have a clearer mind in the morning (I promise).

I'm sorry if I sound condescending, I don't mean to.... but I feel the same at the moment, and I hate myself enough to ignore myself, everyone else does, so I might as well too. But tomorrow morning I'll be a completely different person and I'll be glad I'm not dead. Hope this happens for you.

All the very best,
Karen

Written by housewife, 22. Oct 2006 12:55 AM

Hang in there bluewave, and seeing your Psych early this week would be the appropriate thing to do. If you can just get control of what you put in your body you will slow the spin down. Maybe concentrate on that for a coupla days. The negative thoughts push your button to eat, the eating really gets you down, then you're stuck. The food is the only bit you can control at this point, and you can. That's where you need to start right now. To prevent going further down. When this rotten illness means there is no-one left to catch us when we fall and our coping mechanisms are no longer working we gotta change them. Eating doesn't work for you anymore, so it's folly to go there. Sex works, temporarily though, because the emotional part isn't there, and that's what you are seeking. Your eating can be addressed, you know it isn't working for you, stick to a normal, healthy diet, we all know what that is, drink a glass of water every time you want to eat between meals, replace the old behaviour with a new one. You need to understand yourself better, try to get something out of your Psych sessions, present your Psych with a specific concern that you have and see whether one by one you can begin to address your issues. Hope you pick up a bit today, you only need a bit, you have a lot ahead of you bluewave and you need to get over these hurdles you are putting in front of yourself. Understand what they are, and what you might do about them. Doesn't overly matter how you got where you are, but these things can be managed. Start today to pull this up. You can do it. As for your friends, we all wear our friends out sometimes, they do their best but they can't fix anything, so again it's fruitless to burden them with our emotional stuff. When I am with a good friend, maybe 2 minutes is spent on how I'm feeling, and how they are feeling, then the rest is doing whatever we do together, or talking about common interests. Or problems which might be able to be resolved. Except my e-mail mate, who gets the short end of the stick. So, will you try to pull this up today?
All the best.
Example: I feel fat and unattractive=therefore I will do something about my weight NOT so I'm better off dead, although that thought shows you how important it is that you do in fact get a grip on your weight. And since you are one step ahead of the rest of the population and know that your emotional state drives you to comfort eating, keep addressing your emotional state with Professional help. You can do it.

Written by Deleted_User, 22. Oct 2006 11:04 AM

hang in there blue wave, i no things feel like shit and ur really hurting but in times it wont u just have let urself go thru the process. take care

Written by Greg_House, 22. Oct 2006 12:03 PM