Some Inspiration For You All
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Written by bluewave 2. Jul 2008 02:52 PM
At the end of the day it doesn't matter how many people you have shagged or what your TEE score was in high school or what type of car you drive.
In the end you have to be able to face yourself in the mirror and honestly be able to say that you like who you are. To know you have family and true friends behind you, walking beside you.
I've wasted 5 years trying to please others and desperately begging for acceptance from society. The fact is, if we can accept ourselves there is no other reason to look for it any where else.
Today is a new day, 'seize the day.' I'm trying my best to be grateful for what I do have and the good days that I can experience. I am trying my best to forgive myself for the mistakes I've committed in the past. I am trying to forgive people who have betrayed and hurt me.
I haven't forgotten the hurt, especially from past relationships, however forgiving means letting go. I pray for these people that one day they will find the errors of their ways, but that is it, I move on and live my life...happily.
As I have found, being single the past months, I have really been given me a chance to search my soul and I feel I am beggining to truely find myself. It's like my heart is beating again with life.
I know it's been difficult for me and for so many of you, we have battled through each and every day. However we have survived. We are survivors and we deserve peace and happiness.
Persistance, persistance and more persistance! Keep fighting guys, I feel it in my bones this year, 2008, things can change, we all have the potential to change and challenge our thoughts, if not circumstance.
We only live once and then we decompose back to the earth. What I am saying is that there must be more to life than the depression that clouds us at times. We deserve life and I won't give up on it, I feel together we can support each other so much and come out the better end.
I lost hope long ago but it is raging in me again, now, I know in my soul there is possibility for all of us to live through this and learn from it and become stronger people because of it.
Bluewave
xxoo