Life is good
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Written by bluewave 19. Jun 2008 04:10 PM
Hi all,
I just want to say life is getting better and not to sound like I am any better or anything, but I know it's because of my hard work and persistance. I just want to remind and encourage you all that battling mental illness and overcoming it, is possible.
It takes a lot of effort and a long time unfortunately to be able to make physical and conscious efforts to change but I believe we can all get there in the end. We just got to keep supporting each other.
I have been having bad days, true, but I realize I can be sad but I don't have to crash and burn like I used to.
I am also accepting the fact that I am single. I feel a lot more comfortable with past destructive relationships and I think this has come about because I have been throwing myself into music and gardening and art and friends. I can't believe I forgot what fun life can be, I forgot I have a lot of hobbies I did and now again enjoy. I am starting to really appreciate my friends and being able to laugh constantly and talk and have fun without alcohol or without constantly looking out for a potential bf or hot guy to take me home.
I am also coming to terms with my weight gain. It's going to be hard to lose the weight but it's no reason to start cutting or binging. I used to do these things to cope but recently I am finding I have no desire for the usual self destructive patterns. It's not easy, sometimes I just want to cry, but then I remember I am a real person, I've made mistakes and had a hard few years but I want to be happy again. I really do and I know I have to work on it and be patient.
I suggest for all of you to do something today you enjoy. Even shopping! Just one positive action like that can bring a smile to your face for a day. One day at a time is truely the way to go.
Oh guys I am happy today :) I really am and I want to share this vibe and feeling with you guys because I think now and then we must remind each other the positives in life and also the fact that finding happiness in our heart, every now and then is achievable!
Bluewave
xxoo
PS: Smile at someone in the street today