Half Empty
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Written by bluewave 10. Jun 2008 03:22 AM
Hi,
I am empty but it still hurts.
I am tired of struggling through every bloody day.
had enough today. Maybe tomorrow will be better maybe it will be the same, I tired of this average life, the same stupid negative thoughts which I know are not true but I still believe them.
Just FED UP with MYSELF...I don't know...I just don't know. aaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhh
I am EMPTY. There is nothing there. All I know that it hurts and I am so sick of it controlling my life all this crap I complain about is never rational anyway my fears control me and in reality they shouldn't.
In reality my life is not that bed so why the hell do I feel like a piece of worthless shit. oh I hate myself I feel my soul, my heart and personality becoming just as ugly as my body.
I just wanna live already DAMMIT!!!
I'm sorry for this entry but guys please tell me when this will end? My mood changes constantly and I can't keep up it's sending me into a spiral.
I'm hungry now, stuff it i'm gonna stuff my fat face with something it'll help me go to sleep.
Bluewave
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