inspiration in the most simplest of forms!
A page in the diary "mer"
Written by detergent 2. Feb 2008 12:11 AM
for all the don't know me... i'm an oldie! but still young and radiant. i like to think anyway. ok well i'm 22 and studying personal training. can you belive it!!! i'm at school i faced my fear of failing!!!! apart from that. With my study it canbecome very overwhelming at times. theres a lot to know about the human body. im talking about thephysical side. but as i have been feeling today is amazement... we are so blessed, yes at times are brains may not work the way we want them too. but we still are.. with everything our bodys do pump blood to our lungs to get oxygen in them so it can be then be pumped around he body... we do naturally sub conciusly! to make our bodies move is all these little signals ing sent. we are so blessed to be alive and to have functioning bodys. it is the small things like this that we need to take notice of. it doesn't mean we wont get angrie or upset we still will but i dunno...im just amazed by the power we have without even noticing. we can choose to let things overwhelm us and its not a bad thing if they do. but on the same token we can choose to let this feeling stay with us or we can get up and face what is overwhelming us and look it in the eye and laugh at it and poke our tounges out and just absoloutly kick its arse! not the same with depression i know. but im 22 i have permanent depression i've been seeing psychologists and counsellors for 3 or 4 years now... and i still see my psychologist. does it matter that i wont get over depression? no, because i have a choice in how enriched i am. i can stay where i am and still have niggling things or i can snap it all on the head and be happy with who i am what i have and who is in my life. i still mioght cry frequently, ocassionaly or every day. but atlest at the end of it all i will know who i am, will like myself, will be able to make smarter descions to benefit my health and not too benefit my social life or standing. you need to stand up for what you belive in and what you expect for yourself because no one else will! does it matter if someone isn't happy with your decsion? no. its your life and you need to do what makes YOU happy. true people will respect the descions you make. unless they are to delibarately cause pain to someone.
and no matter how unmotivated you feel exercise is always the best medicene. since i started on my health kick i have achive and felt so much better within myself. once you get in the habbit of it you will notice a huge change. you just need to push yourself sometimes but when you get there you will not regret it. sometimes even if its 5 minutes of feeling better its still a break from what sometimes feels like a never ending dark tunnel. hope i didn't bore you all too much... and if you made it this far thank you for taking the time out to read my ramblings! xoxo