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A page in the diary "mer"
Written by detergent 20. Aug 2006 12:49 AM
im hoping i feel sad because im sick. but i know that thinking that is a bit of a lie because im getting better. i dont really have any thing to be upset about..me and my sister are speaking, but not speaking speaking. speaking somewhat normally, its not just for show.. we're actually speaking, some thing i never thought would happen but its good. i've accepted that some days ill hate her with a passion and wont be able to stand her. but other days ill be fine, i think accepting that this part of it is normal after whats happened has helped me be able to salvage whats left.
but i still feel crappy, dont know why but i cant stop thinking about my ex.. and what was, all that kind of soppy stuff. all my hours got cut for next week, have a total of 0 hours. yay.. that could explain my shittyness, but it just feels deeper then that.