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Christmas...again

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Written by sammy1987 24. Dec 2006 09:15 PM

So i suppose im doing ok....

Have had 2 weird dreams....like really weird...I cant even explain them cos I dont even know what happened in them. Although, one thing was the same in each dream...Mum died...and I saw it. Its probably just the fact its my 3rd xmas without Mum this yr....

it just doesnt seem real...it doesnt seem that Im here...at dads...without my Mum. I'm still trying to...after nearly 2 and a half yrs on...trying to accept the fact she's gone and she isnt coming back...

I dunno...i xmas and birthdays and stuff will always be hard! *sigh*

Anywho...on to better stuff...Ive spent the past few days thinking bout Mum and stuff...and id like to share some happy stuff.

Ricky...pretty much...just being able to have the whole Santa thing happen...and hiding the presents till Xmas eve and then putting them out. He is so excited about Santa coming. Its been fun :)

I am looking forward to tomorrow tho..seeing him see al the presents Santa has brought him. It will be good...Ben and Sharyn will be over in the arvo...Adam is here tonight...

I miss Mum heaps....and it hurts so much...but i'll be ok! I know...well at least i HOPE she loves me and shes watching me!

Take care everyone and have a GREAT xmas eve...
and I shall prob post tomorrow!

CYA laters!

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Comments from the community:

I guess it's natural for you to miss your Mum, but as you said yourself, you'll be ok.

Hope you get to enjoy Christmas this year!!~ Take care.

Written by a-Leng, 24. Dec 2006 09:29 PM

Hi sammy

Yes, you will still miss your mum over the Christmas break. It's when the family traditionally all got together that we miss those who are missing the most.

You will do fine. There's your dad still there and the rest of the family

Be kind to yourself

Jenny

Written by Deleted_User, 24. Dec 2006 11:04 PM

Hey Sammy..
I remember having a really in depth conversation with you this time last year, and how quick has that time gone?!?
But..you know that your mum is watching you from up there in the sky and she is so proud of everything you do and what you have accomplished. Everything you say and do, she is there with you, walking right beside you and guiding the way for you. I know that. Believe me, she misses you too, but believe that she is there with you every step of the way. She is like your guardian angel if you like, keeping you safe.

If she was here, or if she could talk to you, she would not want you to be upset. She wants you to be happy and cry happy tears about all the great times you did have together and all the memories that you so fondly have.

Sammy - i know its tough and i know your hurting. But, your mum is with you, and so are all of us here.
Have a Merry Christmas and a happy NYE. I hope you find the light in 2007.
Lots of hugs and support as always
Kato xo

Written by kato, 25. Dec 2006 12:09 AM

Hey Sammy,
I can't imagine what you are going through especially at this time of the year..Just want to remind you that you aren't alone through this cos you have plenty of support here and we'll all be by yourside every step of the way..
Just want to wish you a very Merry Christmas Sammy and may the new year bring you peace,happiness,good health and lots of laughter..Sending you a super hug and always remember you will never walk alone..
Thanks for being a super duper fabulos mate..
Love ya lots,
Jo xoxo

Written by JoanneC84, 25. Dec 2006 12:17 AM

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