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Written by lostlilgurl 29. Oct 2005 01:32 PM

Yay I can finally get into my diary now!
The "string error" doesnt come up anymore.
I hope everyone is doing ok. I thought my meds had lifted my mood but ive been very UP and DOWN. At the moment im on a real low. Ive just been in my room for the past few days, havent felt like eating much and havent been to school. Havent had the energy to write anything much till now. I like how now theres chat on this site but no ones ever on it and it was a shame that when somebody (Michael) was, my computer stuffed up :(

I turned 17 last Wednesday not that i feel any different from being 16. I put up a fake happy front and smile for everyone else and pretended like i still wanted to be here.

I plan on spending this cup weekend in my room, because i just cant face going anywhere. On Wednesday I have an appointment with my psych so i suppose i can talk about everything thats been on mind mind with her then.

Have a good weekend everyone...
Much love and hugs...
Luv B


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Comments from the community:

First of all a big Happy Birthday to you B! I know turning one year older doesn't feel much different but it shows you've been through another year... :)

Anyway, I've been coming on depnet quite frequently these past few days and I've noticed that users do come on at odd times, and we just miss each other sometimes.

It's good to hear that you'll be seeing your psych soon, since your mood is low.

Take care.

a-Leng

Written by a-Leng, 29. Oct 2005 02:47 PM

Hi :o)

Happy B'day. 16 or 17 is pretty much the same but as a-leng said at least it's another year. Sometimes puting on a false smile isn't the best because you continue to feel low and guilty, at least I do. It is also hard to show your true feelings. I'm pretty lowsy at this helping thing :o(. I understand about the chat because I kept missing everyone to. Some of us should maybe write in our diary's and try and tee up the same time to be on here. Write some of your feelings down and share them with your psych and hopefully he/she can make you feel a little better. We are all here for you.

Take Care

Written by oneday, 29. Oct 2005 06:14 PM

Hi B!

Happy Birthday for last Wednesday!!!!

Great news you can get back into your diary! I was having trouble too and found that creating a new user profile worked well.

I have been pretty up and down lately too. I too have just started one of my several day long lows. I am sorry to read you are on a similar cycle.

Yeah, it's a bummer your computed was messing up when we finally had a chance to chat. Oh well, there are other times I guess.

Good luck with your psych appointment on Wednesday! I wish you all the very best with it! I hope she can help you!

Cheers,
Michael

Written by Michael, 29. Oct 2005 08:02 PM

Happy Birthday to you :)
Happy Birthday to you :)
Happy Birthday Dear B :)
Happy Birthday to you! :)

Hippip, Hooray! Hippip, Hooray! Hippip, Hooray! :)

Dear Beautiful B,

You are my sunshine! It always brightens my day to hear from you and I want to thank you for your comment on my diary. I'm sorry to hear you are feeling low at the moment. I hope I've given you a smile at least. :)

Now, talking as your unofficial Big sis, I hope you have started eating properly again. And if you haven't, then I urge you to do so. You need proper nutrition to stay strong and healthy. If you let yourself get rundown from not eating properly, you'll make yourself sick and that won't help your studies - you've probably started your exams by now (i hope you go well with them BTW). Eating properly will also give you more energy as well.

I hope you don't stay in your room all weekend. You should try to get out in the fresh air. Go for a walk, sit in the sun (if it is sunny) and read a book or just take in the amazing beauty of nature. Breathe in the fresh air and stop to smell the roses - literally. You will feel so much better afterwards. And remember to count your blessings and be thankful for all the positive things in your life. :)

Okay, enough preaching! :)

I hope you manage to find some time to have some fun - put on some music and dance around the house (or maybe just your bedroom). Take care beautiful one!
Luv, ((hugz)) & smiles always
Gidge
xoxox


Written by Gidge, 30. Oct 2005 12:00 AM

"HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!" for last Wednesday :)

It was lovely chatting to you last night Lost :)

I wish you all the VERY BEST, and hope that your feeling better soon, and the sun shines on soon.

MUCH SUPPORT, STRENGTH, HOPE, LIGHT & LOVE.

XOXO

Written by shelley, 30. Oct 2005 04:08 AM

hey b,
just think ur 17 one more year till ur 18 then heaps of stuff changes... its great, i think i cant memba hehe. i hope that talking to your psych helps work out why yours have been abit up and down lately. hopefully ill catch u on chat one day :)
love manda

Written by greenmartian, 30. Oct 2005 04:46 AM