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Written by Tracy 6. Dec 2005 11:17 PM

Well call me over sensitive, I hate it when I feel like this, shattered. Tonight I went to a school council meeting, our treasurer is living at the end of the year and does a wonderful job. And someone has to take it over next year. As well the school and our office person are learning a new accounting programwhich is really stressing her out. Anyway during the meeting I offered to meetwith the trainging lady and the office person to work out what reports could be printed off that would be appropriate for school council, the principal took it the wrong and shot me down in flames and told me that the office person was under a lot of pressure and that it wasnt my job to interfear with the office ladys stuff - I have never heard him ever speak to anyone like that in school council and I felt like a little child in front of a class room full of people and humiliated. Only trying to help because understand the treasury is always very difficult for everyone, and I just thought the the lady that does the training, I would be able to say we just want a report that gives balances and reconciled expenditure and reciepts/payment. that is simple. Anyway I know it is all silly, and not what he said it was the way he snapped and the tone he said it in. The worst thing is that I just makes me feel like crying, something so stupid can make me feel so dumb and I feel like I overstepped the mark but all in good intention, how can you be on a finance committe if you dont understand the ins and out of it all, if you cant read what is handed to you.

Stupid I know. And sitting here with tears rolling down my face, I feel like a chld that is in trouble for something they didnt even mean to do.

Anyway I hope everyone has had a good day.
Trace

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Comments from the community:

Hi Tracy
Not sure what say here, but oh how i feel for you.
I have myself shed many tears at what people have said at times, and it does hurt so.
To feel like that in front of a group..

Not sure as to wether you should talk to the person, or people and try to explain you were only trying to help, may help to clear things up.
People an be so insensetive at time, and yes we can be oversensetive.

Wish i could give you a big hug..
So insead, will send a big bags of hugs..

Hope your feeling better today
HUGS
Les

Written by les, 7. Dec 2005 09:01 AM

Dearest Trace,
It must be a day for tears on cheeks.........had to shed a few of my own this morning but that's a healthy thing......it's a release .........it's those dang thoughts that go with them that are not as healthy.

It sounds like the principal is stressed himself and I'm sure would regret what he'd said or the tone in which he put it, if given the opportunity to know the effect it had on you.

Sometimes depression makes us overly sensative and if our depression stems from childhood events which halted our emotional growth,...when these kinda things happen, we don't deal with them in the same way others may, and get more emotional but that doesnt mean we are any less of a person.
Don't be sad hon......having been in business I know exactly how you feel......it happened to me many times but I found the best way for me was to clear the air with the party concerned, in a diplomatic kinda way.
I gained strength from contacting the person and politely correcting their impression of what I was conveying.......and it always felt better afterwards.....as well as made for improved relations later on.
I'm not saying you should do this, just saying please dont dwell on it....or let it eat at you.
If you didnt want to confront the principal, what about a note or email.....there are options.......don't let the child in you suffer for what was a kind hearted offer.
Sending you love and strength always.
Chy xx

Written by Chy, 7. Dec 2005 11:07 AM

Dear Trace, I can feel the pain in your heart.
It is hurtful and embarrassing to be spoken to like that. Chy made a mention of childhood events etc and I always think that if someone speaks to us like that, it makes our inner child tremble as though we were that child again being told off for something which we didn't ever intend to be wrong.No wonder it makes you cry.
If you don't want to make an issue of it with the person in question, maybe you could just type a 'pretend' letter expressing your diasppointment with their lack of manners and really lay it on the line as to how bad you feel. You don't have to send it but maybe the exercise might relieve some of the pain.
Not stupid, not over-sensitive, just himan, Trace.
Sending you healing light and love and wish you a better day.
Sue:)

Written by dontworrybehappy, 7. Dec 2005 11:46 AM

Dearest Tracy,

I'm so sorry for the way you where spoken to by the principal and the way it made you feel ((((BIG HUG))))

I also agree with Chy to send the principal an e-mail or letter if you don't feel comfortable in speaking to she/he in person. By going through this process of writing or speaking in person to correct the principal's OVER REACTION, you will find MUCH HEALING and reclaim back your precious energy that you have given up on the hurt this incident has caused you sweet heart.

I send you MUCH SUPPORT, STRENGTH, FRIENDSHIP, HEALING,
LIGHT, HOPE & LOVE.

Take good care of your WONDERFUL SELF.
XOXOXOXOOXOXOXOOXXOOXOXOXXOXOXOXOXOXXOXOXOXOXOOXXOXOOXO

Written by shelley, 7. Dec 2005 04:19 PM