that "friend"
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Written by Tazzy17 18. May 2008 06:56 PM
well i managed to get in contact with my friend who hasnt spoken to me in a month... and it will be the last time i contact her.
she is on drugs, big time. and she is having such a great time she doesn't want to stop. so i wont have anything to do with her. i feel that her behavior is a danger to me and my unborn baby. i don't want anything to do with it.
she visited me today and i could tell she was under the influence. she was even talking about the pills in front of me, describing them in detail. she knows i don't like that stuff... i had my small amount of fun years ago and i don't ever want to be around it again! i've seen it all before with a close family member. i know what it looks like.
i just feel so sorry for her daughter. my friend was a mess, she really was. but she wont admit it.
if she wanted help i would help her, but i have so many issues myself, with this pregnancy and going back on meds. i will talk to my psych about it but i think she will agree. i just need to walk away and think about how to protect myself and my family. i have bigger things to worry about. this "friend" is not a friend anymore.
in a way i'm glad she came over... for me it was closure. i know the friendship didn't go wrong because of something i did. she has simply gone in a very different direction to me. i hope she realises it before something bad happens, but its up to her family to help her now...
otherwise, i've been feeling a little bit better today now that my birthday is over with.
hope everyone is well
tazzy
xoxoxo