my mother... and other problems
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Written by Tazzy17 25. Jan 2008 02:46 AM
well im nearly 7 weeks pregnant now according to my first ultrasound. somebody overheard me tell a friend about my ultrasound appointment and decided that they would personally tell as many people as they could that i was pregnant, just to see their reactions! it really hurt me that someone could be so horrible like that. due to the risk of miscarriage i didnt want anyone to know just yet - i didnt want to run the risk.
its been a nightmare with people who dont like me having a go at me because im pregnant. its my life, and dons ex girlfriend in particular is just trying to upset me, just because her life is so great, she has his 2 daughters and he never gets to see them!
so i had to tell my mother i was pregnant - better that she heard it from me, then got it secondhand from someone else. she's not talking to me right now - and i am not going anywhere near my dad for a while because he may attack my fiance... the thing that my mother is hoping for right now is that i miscarriage. it was the only thing i could say to stop her from yelling at me... that theres still a high chance of miscarriage. what mother actually hopes her daughter loses their baby... its so cruel.
i have really bad morning sickness too, and it makes me feel pretty depressed sometimes. i have been getting very emotional, which is to be expected. i just hope it all gets better. my fiance is happy about the pregnancy, so am i - why cant my family either learn to live with it - or just leave us alone, they dont have to have anything to do with us and the child if they dont want to!
anyway, im feeling quite sick so i better go rest... hopefully my next entry is a bit happier.
tazzy