A page in the diary "Tazzy's Diary"
Written by Tazzy17 19. Apr 2006 02:19 PM
well i have to have my epilim levels upped a bit. they were too low.
i seem to be causing problems for everyone - maybe i should avoid people - then i cant hurt anyone else.
when i get scared and feel like im in danger i am not going to call my friends for help anymore. last time i did that my friend didnt answer the phone, but i had woken her up... she didnt get much sleep after that and i didnt realise she had a work shift the next day - so she was very tired and made some mistakes.
i just cause problems for everyone. i guess i AM just attention seeking. i never really thought that because i hate it when people make a fuss over me - i try to hide all my cuts, and i dont talk to people anymore because i dont want people to know about my problems. if i go into hospital again i wont tell anyone. obviously my fiance will know - but if anyone calls my mobile ill just say im out of town.
i think i need to go back into hospital. things are just not going well for me at all at the moment.
at the moment my fiance is getting lunch with his ex girlfriend to bring back here - he wanted me to go with her to get it, but i really didnt want to go. i said he should go - so he did. i dont know whether i expected him to do any different. doesnt matter anyway - i have some peace and quiet at the moment- i should make the most of it.
well ill write more another day...
seeya
tazzy