meds arent working... :(
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Written by Tazzy17 16. Apr 2006 12:47 AM
well as you can tell i dont feel that my medication is working. im running out of ones to try because ive tried at least one or more from every different medication type/catagory...
i had a very bad night the other night. i broke down and was rather hysterical (my fiance was here to help though!) i was thinking that nobody wanted me around and that it wouldnt matter if i wasnt here anymore. i tried to call a friend but she was in bed asleep - it was after 2am... and so i went on the paper run with my man instead. i calmed down after about 1/2 hour...
almost every night is liike that now. basically i cant stand being alone anymore, these are the symptoms of "borderline personality disorder" coming out now. i really am at a loss of what to do at the moment to try to get better.
councelling isnt helping at all... never did really. the medication alone cant do much, not that its even helping at the moment. so i dont know what to do. im just trying to hang in there and hope for the best.
my fiance is at work at the moment so im home alone again. i slept all day because he is working night shift and i want our sleeping patterns to match better. so i guess ill be up all night.
at least i got the dishes done - i feel good about that. i think ill try and do as much house work as i can this night, it will keep my mind occupied and will make me feel good about things once its all done.
well theres not much else to say at the moment, so i guess ill get going.
seeya
tazzy
xoxoxo