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Written by Tazzy17 26. Mar 2006 10:37 PM

well things were supposed to get better - they arent.

ive been to see the psych - i have to have some blood tests done this week. the custody battle regarding my paretners child has been won. the kid does not have to live with her mother anymore!!! both his children know we are getting married now - but they seem ok with it now.

this is where things were supposed to get better. my fiance has put down a deposit on my official engagement ring. but he is rarely home anymore. he works night shift - long hours. when he is home, he sleeps alot, or he is up playing the computer. normally i wouldnt have a problem with this - but he still has all his boxes to unpack - and he has just spent 2 weeks with his ex girlfriend because of his kids - so a little time together wouldnt hurt!

earlier tonight i ended up accidentally making him bite his tongue - literally - i felt so bad... i let him know that he has done it to me alot but i never say anything... now im worried that he's angry at me because i didnt want to hurt his feelings in the first place. whenever he finds out that he has accidentally phisically hurt me he feels so bad... i know its accidental - i just dont want him to feel bad - ever!

anyway - im just complaining now... so im gonna get going.
seeya later
tazzy
xoxoxo

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Comments from the community:

Hi Tazzy,

I think "things" are getting better... You have to try and remember you both have an adjustment period to go through.. It will take time.

There are a heap of postive stuff in your post.. The Engagment ring.. the end of the court case.. the outcome of the court case... your visit to the psych.. The acceptence of his kids with your up coming marriage.. I could go on and on but i think you get the idea.

Working shift work sucks... I've done it ( try not to now) and my partner does it on and off... Like the past two weeks... I'm at work he is home sleeping, I get home he is out the door... or better still on a plane to Perth.. This week it is work tonight..Plane to Sydney for the week on Tuesday.. then off to Perth the following Monday... (Lucky i like my own company.. well sometimes any way).. i miss him heaps when he is away and then it is an adjustment all over again when he is back to normal Monday to Friday stuff.

Hang in there.. it WILL work out.. Hint for you.. Talk to him if you have concerns.. He wont know what you are feeling if you don't tell him.

lol and support Michelle

Written by mickey2, 27. Mar 2006 12:27 PM