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Written by Tazzy17 21. Mar 2006 04:33 PM

well i had my appointment with the psychiatrist. he didnt listen to a word i said. my fiance was with me and he felt the same way.

i have to have some more blood tests for my epilim levels - yay...

me and don are still having a little trouble, he walked out on me just before my psych appointment - and i really neede his support at that time - i started crying in the waiting room of course, then went out to his car and asked to use his phone so that i could call another friend to be with me for the appointment. at that he did realise that i needed somebody there and he eventually came with me.

he's still at the ex's with the kids - im still alone all the time. i have to have a talk with his childrens grandmother - not his mum but the mothers mum... she doesnt trust me at all... so she wants to talk to me and sus me out basically. im not looking forward to it much...

the other night i had someone watching me through my window and i didnt even know it. now im even more scared to be home alone of a night, but i have to be :(

sometimes i hate my life so much, but there are people out there who care about me. they are the only reason i am still here... if it weren't for them i would have been gone long ago i think...

well i better go
seeya
tazzy

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Comments from the community:

Hi Tazzy

I'm glad you can think of people who care abaout you. That's really important when you feel depressed and life seems so meaningless. Take it easy and try to think of the positive things like that so that you can face each day with confidence. Glad you are part of this community. :-)

Warm wishes
Cath

Written by Anonymous, 21. Mar 2006 07:52 PM

Hi tazzy,

If your appointment didn't go well and you were not comfortabe with your psych.. seek out another one... Please don't tar them all with the same brush.. It can take time to find one that you can relate to... It IS worth the EFFORT to do it..... I'm sorry you and don are still have difficulties... it must be hard for you both. I think understanding on Both sides is needed here.

If you feel unsafe at home this should be brought up with him or someone close who can be contacted straight away.... I sometimes sleep with the tv on when my partner is away ( great security/ body guard i can be at times)... I have a thing sometimes about being at home on my own... i shut everything down ( and double check) and have the phone within reach...

The talk you have to have with this woman.. for who's benifit is it??? is it for her peace of mind re her grand kids or is it to do with don.??? You go in there strong and confident don't let anything come in the way of your relationship with don and his kids... It may not be as bad as you think.

Stay strong.

lol Michelle

Written by mickey2, 23. Mar 2006 01:51 PM