money issues
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Written by Tazzy17 2. Feb 2006 12:39 AM
well me and my fiance are still trying to find a place. and hes having touble with his pay from work now. hes definently not getting what he should be - he works as a security guard doing 11 hour shifts!!!
im not dealing with things too great. ive been off the medication for at least 3 weeks now, but at least im not throwing up anymore. ive had some panic attacks - usually at night. they are bad, and this was the first time my fiance don saw how they affected me - he wasnt with me when they occurred, but he saw me very soon after - and i was still a wreck.
im not seeing my case manager as much as i should be. but thats because i dont feel comfortable with her and i dont think things are going ANYWHERE! im still the same as i was 6 months ago - except for don!!! hes the one thing thats helped me.
i feel better about myself though. overall... because don has really helped me lift my self-esteem! its still low... but at least i dont think im completely worthless and want to end everything. now i see that i do have a some purpose and that there are people out there who care about me and want to see me happy and healthy!
don was supposed to be spending the night with me because my parents are away, but after we got food and hired out dvd's his boss called and wanted him to work... so i wont see him till the morning. he'll be so tired... :( poor thing - but at least its more money.
well i better get going.
seeya
tazzy
xoxoxo