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Written by Tazzy17 6. Jan 2006 09:44 PM

my fiance's ex girlfriend will not leave him alone!!! she practically raised his children but she is not their mother... but the kids grandmother (who has custody of them) says that they have to go to HER place and don can have access visits as long as he's at his ex-girlfriends place because his ex girlfriend is the only one the grandmother trusts with the kids.

next week he has to spend 7 days at her place becuase of the kids and shes already told me that she wants to be "closer" to him and it hurts "HER" when he's with me!!! he's MY fiance!!! i know shes going to try something - i just have to have faith in don and hope that he loves me enough to resist her!!!

dons ex constantly sends him love messages and letters saying how she cannot give up on what they had! she just will not accept the fact that he has moved on and is getting married to ME! its killing me on the inside with jealousy because a few months ago he actually "slept" with her... 3 times he cheated on me and i still forgave him because he was there for me after that assault and through everything else! i love him so much!!!

i could never leave him - no matter what he does i just love him so deeply. hes been faithful to me ever since but he's still "close" to his ex... and it hurts so much. sometimes i wonder wether it would be better to leave him and deal with that pain (which would most likely drive me over the edge to be honest) than to try and deal with the constant hassle of his ex! its a daily torture for me and i dont know how long i can take it...

also... my great aunty passed away on tuesday... i feel so bad because i was really close to her but i hadnt seen her in ages. i feel so guilty. so if you add up everything that happened to me over the last few months - im surprised im still hanging in here... and i have the most detailed and vivid nightmares. i and vomiting for no reason and i cry all the time at the drop of a hat...

don is still trying to get a place for him and i to move in to together

ill write more another time
seeya
tazzy-

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Comments from the community:

Tazzy,
You sure are biting off a lot. There must be some way out of the three way relationship. It would be very hard to put up with.
Reserves of strength are hard to keep in your situation, so make sure you come past here for support. We all need it!
Hugs,

Bob

Written by chordsinger, 7. Jan 2006 12:00 PM

Hi Tazzy,

I feel for you so much. A love triangle can be very hard to deal with.

I want to ask you something, but I want you to think long & hard about the answer. You might not like the question but I care about you and I only have your best interests at heart. I have been in the same situation as you. I know how hard it is.

Okay, here's the question - Are you REALLY in love with Don, or are you just putting up with his behaviour because you are scared of losing him and being on your own again?

Your gut instint is telling you something and you SHOULD listen to it. He has already cheated on you, with her, 3 times!!! And now he's telling you that he has to stay at her house for a week so he can be with his kids! What a croc of shit! I think you already know in your heart, that the chances of him doing it again are extremely high.

That saying "Once a cheater, always a cheater" is very, very true. He may be telling you he loves you but he doesn't seem to be acting like it. He thinks that because you let him get away with it before, he'll get away with it again because you're too scared to let him go. Trust me, I know that's how he's thinking because I've had it done to me and was told that's what my "boyfriend" thought of me. He thought I was "easy" because I acted like a doormat and let him walk all over me. Have some pride & dignity in yourself and end it with him first, before he makes a fool out of you again.

I'm sorry Tazzy, I'm not trying to hurt you. I'm just telling you the way I see it. I really do care about you. :)

Take care of yourself sweety. :)

Lv, ((hugz)) & smiles
Gidge
xoxox

Written by Gidge, 7. Jan 2006 04:35 PM

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