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Hey sweetheart,

I am so sorry for you to hear what has happened to you. That is so awful. Since you are staying with friends, I hope that doesn't mean it was Don that did it. I just remember you talking a little while ago about him doing something bad to hurt you. I'm sorry if I got the wrong idea, I sincerely hope it wasn't him though.

Amyway, I want you to know and understand that you DID NOT deserve that. No-one deserves to have that happen to them. And you are NOT a bad person. The person that did this to you is a sad, sorry excuse for a human being. I hope he gets what he deserves in return.

I hope that you can get through this terrible time. Have faith and take care of yourself. I hope you start to feel better soon. I'm thinking of you sweety, and will say an extra prayer for you tonight.

Luv, ((hugz)) & smiles
Gidge
xoxox

Written by Gidge, 18. Dec 2005 07:20 PM

Hey Tazzy
That is awful. You are not a bad person and by no means did you deserve what happened. Im glad that you are staying with friends and seeing a counsellor. Keep them close to you (your friends) at this stage and hopefully, they will listen to you, support you and understand you. Just keep telling yourself, that it wasn't your fault.
Lots of hugs
Kato xoxo

Written by kato, 18. Dec 2005 08:57 PM

hey everyone - thanks for your comments and kind words

no it wasn't my fiance don who sexually assaulted me. it was a guy from a bar me and a friend went to - id met him only a couple of times before. i was with my girlfriend and two other male friends at the time when this happened, they were just inside the house and i was still outside because this other guy wouldnt let me in... yet i was so frozen in fear and shock that my friends may as well have been a million miles away at the time!

what my fiance don did in the past hurt our relationship and trust but not me physically - he had slept with another woman on several occasions since we had been engaged. that i can forgive, and i did! our relationship has never been better actually because we know where each other stands and have made our feelings and bounderies clear. we've made promises and vows to one another and in this, my time of desperate need, he has supported me 100%

but this guy from saturday took my innocence from me and made me powerless and dirty. i cannot forgive or forget that, but i will have to deal with it in time and cannot let it ruin my life. i have to take the power back now - and i believe that i am strong enough to do it!

ill write more when i get another chance, this was meant just a quick note to clear up the mis-understanding bout my fiance, because my fiance could NEVER EVER do anything like that to me or any other woman. hes a gentle man and has a kind heart dispite making a few silly mistakes along the way. we all make mistakes, at least his are forgivable, and more forgettable than personally being assaulted thats for sure...

thank you everyone!
love and hope to all your kind souls!!!
tazzy
xxxooo

Written by Tazzy17, 19. Dec 2005 01:12 AM

hi tazzy....sorry to hear what happened to u ...glad u've got counselling though it will help & NO IT WAS NOT UR FAULT,never ever think that & as u have more counselling u urself will no that in ur heart & mind.
please take care of yourself......hope things improve for u soon...sending a big hug.....in GODS grace...kay

Written by biwhat, 20. Dec 2005 05:44 PM