had a good day!!!
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Written by Tazzy17 24. Nov 2005 03:16 PM
well today was a good day for me. i stayed at my friend michelles place last night. my fiance don stayed with me too, seeing as how i cant stay at his place and he cant stay at mine. then i went back to his place and watched a movie. i then went shopping and finally mad it into my workplace and organised some work shifts for over christmas!!!
i havnt been back to work in a few months because of the depression and i have finally got the courage and confidence to get back there!!! i feel so much better for making it there today and talking with my manager!!!
i also finally bought some much needed jeans because my favourite ones have got holes all through them! i just feel good about myself today! feeling very confident!
i also went back to see don after his appointments, and he came shopping with me again, i had to lend him some money but i dont mind helping him out because we are together and we share everything now. he has helped me out in the past!
he told me today how much he appreciates me because of the trouble he's going through with the custody hearings over his daughter, he said im the only thing keeping him sane at the moment, and to know im needed is a nice feeling. ive relied on him so much these past few months and its just wonderful to know i am helping him out with his troubles too. i dont feel like so much of a burden now!!!
im back home and i can finally tell mum i made it back to work, she will be pleased to hear that. finally she can be happy about somehing ive done, usually i never seem to do anything right by her, this time i think it will be different!
i hope i have many more days like this one, i cherish days like this.
on the downside though, i havent been eating right for the last week, in fact ive barely been eating at all. ive been so stressed out about my family life at the moment that ive been making myself physically sick over it, literally crying so much that ive been vomiting! hopefully that wont happen so much after don and i find a place to move in together and i get away from all the conflict here at home!
my tattoo has healed now, its an egyptian ankh on my right ankle. im really happy about it and am proudly showing it off now!!! it really means something to me, getting it at this stage of my life to mark these circumstances, hopefully its a good sign that things will get better now!
well i better get going before my mother gets home from wherever she has gone today...
hope everyone has had a nice week so far!!!
luv and hugs!
tazzy
xoxoxo