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Written by Tazzy17 8. Nov 2005 01:20 PM

i have no idea what the hell im doing anymore. my fiance dons ex girlfriend now knows we are together - she doesnt know we are engaged though. shes really upset with us - she hates our guts.

i got a tattoo on saturday to "celebrate" this stage of my life. its an egyptian ankh on my ankle and i love it. my mother hates it an my dad will probable kill me when he finds out. oh well - who really cares...

ive had a rough couple of days. i keep forgetting to take my medication, i just seemed to have lost the plot. i know i need to look after myself, and not just for my sake anymore - i have a fantastic man who loves me and want to be with me. it must hurt him when i dont seem to care about my health and getting better. i really neend to get my act together... i just have to find a way!

im still looking for a place to live with don. im getting a little more desperate to get out of my current situation, so i hope we find a place.

anyway, theres not really much else to say.
seeya
tazzy
xoxoxo

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Comments from the community:

Hey Tazzy,

Great to hear from you. I hope that things look up for you soon. Take care of yourself, and the relationship will continue to heal and grow.

I hope that you find a safe way to get out of your current situation - I know that you have the power and support to do so.

Take care,
kcdbooks

Written by kcdbooks, 8. Nov 2005 05:35 PM

Hey Taz,

Sorry to hear you're not doing too well. Try not to let the ex get to you, she's just jealous of you & Don. If she still loves Don, that's her bad luck, she should've hung on to him while she had him. Lucky for you she didn't! He's with you now & he loves YOU. Don't you forget that! She needs to grow up & move on. I don't understand why you are so upset that she hates you. It's not like you were ever going to be friends so what does it matter? You're the one with the power cos you've got what she wants. :)

Good on you for giving yourself a treat, and something to remember this time in your life by. As long as you like it, who cares! Your parents need to let go. It's your body & your life. :)

I hope you can find some way to remind yourself to take your meds. I put a reminder alarm in my mobile phone. It doesn't feel too good when you forget to take them does it? And yes, you do have a great man who loves you. That should be enough incentive to make you remember to take them & to look after yourself. :)

Good luck with finding a place soon. I'll keep my fingers crossed for you. Take care sweety. :)

Luv, ((hugz)) & smiles
Gidge
xoxox

Written by Gidge, 8. Nov 2005 09:45 PM

"Hi" :) Tazzy,

I'm sorry to read the stress that Don's ex is causeing you at the momment, hopefully she will move on soon.

"Good for you tazzy!!" WHAT A wonderful WAY TO CELEBRAITE a shift in life by treating yourself with a tatto :) i did the same thing five years ago when i turned 30, i have always loved tatto's and from a young age always marveled at the art work and creativity that when into them, it has taken me all this time to pluck up the courage to get one LOL i have a lower back tatoo, it's a celltic design. I have been planning my next, as you discover once you get one the erge for another and another lol is always there ;)

I hope things improve for you soon.

Take EXTRA CARE of your WONDERFUL SELF, won't you?

MUCH SUPPORT, STRENGTH, HOPE, LIGHT & LOVE

XOXOXO

Written by shelley, 9. Nov 2005 09:55 AM

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