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Written by Tazzy17 2. Nov 2005 01:09 PM

well i want to thank everyone for their comments in my last 2 entries!!!

kristy AKA dolphin79 - i took your advice and oh my god i cant believe it worked - im feeling much better today!!! vicks on the bottom of your feet - hehehe who would have guessed!! LOL

Gidge! i want to thank you for your advice in my last entry. i do not think you were being to harsh - i really appreciated what u had to say!!! im going to look for a place to live with don. so mum can leave all she wants. don had said that he will look after me!!! i love him so much...

well im feeling quite a bit better today. yesterday i was throwing up and felt so bad it was terrible. but todays good so far. i stayed with don all day yesterday and went to the movies with him last night. he has to work for the next couple of days so i will miss him!!!

i didnt go to my appointment with my case manager today. i feel wuite bad about it... i didnt go last week - and today was the second try. i just really dont want to go anymore because we are not getting anywhere anyway. i just want to be left alone, ill take my medication, but i really just want to be left alone now... i have don in my life and once im free of my parents i think ill be better. i know it wont be fixed overnight, but im going to try really hard!!!

anyway, todays really hot again, so im actually wearing shorts and a singlet top - considering on a bit overweight - its a miracle that im not all covered up wearing baggy clothes. im trying to beat my demons and not be so self-conscious and afraid all the time! i actually feel quite comfortable!!! mind you theres no one home today!

ive practically quit smoking. i used to go through a whole pack in maybe 1-2 days. ive had 1 ciggie since sunday!!! and im not really feeling the cravings much anymore!!! its a bloody miracle!!! im so proud of myself!! i feel great!!!

i know i may not completely give up straight away - but if i can cut back to this extent then there really is hope for me to fully quit!!! YAY!

well theres not really much else to say today!!

hope everyone has a lovely week!
seeya
tazzy
xoxoxo

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Comments from the community:

Im glad your feeling a bit better now.
With your case manager its your own choice but if you feel its going no where you could try someone else you might be able to help you. I understand you want a break from it all but if you feel things are getting out of control or bad then it might help to talk about it. Im glad things with you and don are goign well too.

Congrats about the ciggies-welldone and keep it up.
All the best
Take Care
Luv B

Written by lostlilgurl, 2. Nov 2005 03:21 PM

Hello,

Congrats on the cigarettes. You do need your parents but remember they make mistakes just like us so it is sometimes good to do your own thing, even without their approval. I'm glad your feeling better. Being in love is the best thing in the world. You can be so much happier when you are with someone you love. I hope the house hunting goes well. Being overweight is just one of those things you eventually accept. With some meds (like mine) make you put on weight which sucks but if that's the lease of my problems i'm lauging. I've finally accepted how I look. It takes time and I am trying to change it but i'm being very casual and not stressing about it. I have much bigger problems which i'm sure you do to. Meds alone won't usually fix you, so maybe it is a good idea to try and find a new case worker.

Take Care :o)

Written by oneday, 2. Nov 2005 05:12 PM

Glad to hear that things seem to be working out for you at this stage. :)

a-Leng

Written by a-Leng, 2. Nov 2005 06:18 PM

Hey Tazzy,

I'm so glad you're feeling better, and that I didn't offend you with my comments. Sometimes I can be a bit blunt but I do only have good intentions. :)

As for the saga with your case manager, I'd say it's up to you, if you don't feel it's helping you. And it's probably stressing you out with guilt for not going to the appointments, so that'll be one less hassle for you. :)

Well done on cutting back on the cigs too. That's great work, I hope you stay strong and be able to quit altogether. :)

Take care Taz. Take advantage of the warm weather & get out in the fresh air. Keep smiling. :)

Luv, ((hugz)) & smiles
Gidge
xoxox

Written by Gidge, 2. Nov 2005 11:11 PM

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