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Written by Tazzy17 27. Oct 2005 04:14 PM

sunday my father came down with whatever this is - like a cold or somethin', then monday my mother came down with it and i did on tuesday. this is my second cold this month!!! what the hell is wrong with me!

i spent saturday and sunday in bed, finally dragged myself out of bed monday because my fiance came to visit, then ive spent tues, wed and today in bed because of this cold! my life is revolving around my bed at the moment - thank god i have a tv and dvd player in my room otherwise id be truly miserable.

don (fiance) was supposed to visit tuesday after sorting out some important appointments in the morning, but he was so tired he couldnt make it. then he said he would try yesterday, but same thing again... i called him yesterday bacause i was so deppressed i thought i would do something silly to myself, i ended up in tears again. so he made sure he called last night and this morning when he woke up.

he said he was going to go back to bed and if he got up at a resonable hour - he might come visit me... well i knew he had no intention of coming over. mums been out most of the day, dad was doing some training, so ive actually been alone all day pretty much - would have been the perfect oppourtunity for don to come over... but... oh well... maybe another time, we'll just keep trying.

i just want to feel better already, instead i feel worse than ever. i have no one to care about me. i was up squeezing lemons for mum for a hot honey lemon drink when she first got sick. no one has botherd to do anything for me, instead i get told to go out in the rain and pick things up off the lawn... dad noticed that i was sick too - and he just yelled at me for being selfish. i have stayed in my room for 3 whole days now - not asking for anything - barely eating. i have one cup a soup a day with a piece of bread because thats all i can stomach...

no wonder im depressed, the only person who cares about me is don - and even he wont/cant visit... why do i bother... ive been feeling particularly bad - but ive managed to ignore the bad thoughs so far. i havnt hurt myself, i just call don if i feel really bad!

well i better get off the net before i get into trouble.

seeya
tazzy
xoxoxo

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Comments from the community:

Hey sweety pie,

I hope you feel better, physically and emotionally, soon. Looking after yourself isn't much fun at all. Any luck with you and Don moving in together, sounds like he will look after you! It is really good that you have someone to call who can support you when you need it. I am sure he is sorry he can't see you more often, too.

I am sending you love and light, sounds like you could do with an extra dose right now! And try and eat a little more, I know it is hard when you are sick - but it is the only way to get better. Maybe you should see a doctor if it doesn't clear up soon?

Love to you, anyway!

MissJ

Written by MissJ, 27. Oct 2005 04:23 PM

Dearest Tazzy,

I send you EXTRA SUPPORT, STRENGTH, LIGHT, and LOVE in this time.

XOXOXOXOXXOXOXOXOXXOXOXOXOXOXXOXOXOXOXOXXOXOXOOXXOXOXO

Written by shelley, 27. Oct 2005 05:28 PM

It's really bad when your also feeling physically sick. Take care and remember there is this web site where although not here long, I realise has some fantastic people. Rest is the best thing until you get over your cold and hopefully your thoughts will also improve. Lots of good luck.

Oneday.

Written by oneday, 27. Oct 2005 08:38 PM

Hi Tazzy,
Good on you for staying strong and managing not to do anything to hurt yourself. I feel for you, not having the care & support from your family, that sucks! At least you have Don to call on when you get really bad. You're lucky to have him, but you do deserve it too. :)
You should try to eat more, to keep your strength up. And drink heaps of fluids - water & juice. I take Vit C tablets every day so I rarely get sick but when I do feel run down or get a sniff of a cold I at least double or triple the dose. Garlic is also good for fighting off colds. Just a tip anyway. :)
Hope you feel better soon sweety. Take care. :)
Luv, ((hugz)) & smiles
Gidge
xoxox

Written by Gidge, 27. Oct 2005 08:46 PM

Aww...I know how you feel. I'm feeling physically ill myself it's such a nuisance and it doesn't help with feeling better emotionally either.

*huggles*

Get well soon!

a-Leng

Written by a-Leng, 28. Oct 2005 09:34 AM

Piece of useless advise that actually works no matter how flaming stupid it sound... Put Vick Vaporub on the bottom of your feet and go to be you will feel so much better in the morning!! Yeah I know it sounds crazy, but i know from my own experience that it actually works. Up to you though.

Take care and rug up!
Kristy

Written by Anonymous, 28. Oct 2005 08:18 PM

Hey
I hope you get better real soon. Its depression- it can lower our immune systems and make us more susceptable for picking up colds and flus. Its a real bummer.

Your not selfish, Do what you need to do to get better. Relax.
If it makes a difference we all care about you.

All the best and take care
Luv B

Written by lostlilgurl, 29. Oct 2005 03:27 PM

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