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Written by Tazzy17 21. Oct 2005 01:19 PM

well i havnt slept in two nights now. i was in bed trying to get to sleep just before but i really really cant, so i thought id get on and write an entry.

my jaws and teeth are so sore its not funny. its from clenching my teeth at night so much. i dont even realise im doing it in bed, but god do i feel the after effects!

i didnt sleep the first night because i was still reeling over the fact that my boyfriend proposed to me. last night it was because my dad got home from work and decided to listen to music really loudly, and i had to get up at 1.30am to go on the paper run with my fiance. hes in bed at the moment, the little bugger has taken up the whole bed LOL. he's such a cutie though - i cant help but laugh, even though im dead tired!

so here i am, barely able to function, but still in a relatively good mood which in itself is a miracle! im nibbling on some lollies, something i havnt done in a while. i was feeling quite sick this morning, so i let Don (my fiance) have brekkie but i couldnt really bear the thought of eating at the time.

ill be staying at dons house for the day. his flat-mate is at work thank god! don will probably stay in bed for quite a while! whenever hes been at MY house and ive let him sleep for hours, he tells me to get him up earlier so he can spend time with me. well today we are at HIS place, so im going to let him sleep as long as he likes! hes had a very very busy few days, and wont have any time off from work until monday. so he really needs his rest while he can get it!!!

oh, yesterday i went to visit dons parents with him again. this time his mother took me aside and asked me if i was her sons new girlfriend. we still havnt told anyone so i had to say no... she was actually very dissapointed and said it was a shame because don needs a woman LOL... hehehehe

i think she will be quite happy when she finds out we are indeed together. but announcing the engagement will definently have to wait a while! his parents are really great, and i cant wait to meet his brother!

don feels a little weird about meeting my father. bearing in mind that for many years of my life my fathers had been (and sometimes still is) a verbally abusive alchoholic, i can totally understand why! so ill give him a little time for that introduction!

anyways, theres not really much else to write, so i hope everyone has a lovely weekend!

luv and hugs
tazzy
xoxoxo

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Comments from the community:

Well done Tazzy, congrats.

I do hope everything goes well for you and Don. just remember to keep working at your relationship, there will be ups and downs just like the illness. My wife is wrecking our relationship and it has fallen apart, because of who is was before I got on the meds and therapy. Sorry thats sounding so negative, but for my part, I am trying my hardest to repair the relationship, not easy with the illness, but I am trying all the same, which make me feel positive but sometimes confused.

all the best for you two

luv and hugz

Enyaw
xoxoxoxo

Written by enyaw, 21. Oct 2005 05:39 PM

Congratulations!
What a special time it is for you.
I feel very happy for you, as it brings back wonderful memories of my partner and I.
My partner has accepted my depression, and she has a history of abuse. But you know what? We love each other, and are a totally functional partnership. We have been together for 10 years, and are still deeply in love. Infact it's been so much fun we laugh at how it only feels like 3 years. Although we have a 9 year old son together, and another that is 5 years old.
Enjoy....and thanks for sharing.

Gidz

Written by gideon9595, 21. Oct 2005 05:59 PM