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Written by Tazzy17 25. Sep 2005 02:50 PM
well once again im home... bored... im waiting for my b/f to call so we can catch up and maybe have lunch together... not that i can actually go to his place cos of his flatmate.. but i would like to see him...
i was supposed to make a dr's appointment last week to discuss changing my medication. it stops the suicidal thoughts, and i cant recall cutting myself whilst ive been on it, but it makes me tired all the time, i cant seem to stop eating and im a little overweight. i dont want to get any bigger than i already am, and when i wasnt on any meds i lost about 10kg. ive since put it all back on, so i want to change the meds so hopefully i can lose this extra weight, and have more energy, which i am majorly lacking at the moment!!!
but as usual, i didnt make the appointment, lack of motivation, energy etc. the week before last i had 2 really good days where i was full of energy, and then i spent about 4 days mostly in bed... thats the cycle i seem to be in. its a miserable existence when i cant even drag my lazy arse out of bed... and it needs to change!!!
i want to move out of home very very badly... that could happen after xmas... im praying all goes to plan!!! i havnt even told my parents of my plans yet, incase it doesnt work out...
so thats all for today i guess! nothing much else is happening... me and my b/f are doing very well!!! if i could see him more it would be nice... but oh well... who knows whats aroung the corner... things will get better!!! they have too!!!
ill try to stay positive... and i hope everyone else is doing well!!!
seeya
tazzy
xoxoxo