the good and the bad
A page in the diary "The S**t in my life"
Written by esp 16. Jan 2007 09:59 PM
well I seriously think I drew the short straw of life. It just seems that everything that could go wrong does go wrong. Of course there are people worse off than me, but I just wish I could have a break. i've been in the intensive care unit again, as got sick again. You know when you get sick too much, its when no ones suprised anymore that you are in hospital. It's either my mental or physical things that I end up in hospital. Although you're better treated with physical problems then with your mental, im continually reminded. I'm thinking of even moving towns, cause of the shit thats happened to me in hte one i'm in now. But only problem is, ive met this really nice guy, and i don't wanna leave him, or make him move. Just wish something in life was easy. And i'm nervously waiting to see if there is enough evidence against the perpertrator in my sexual assault case. It sickens me to know they can get away with it so easily, yet leave me with the mental scars for life. With horrible flashbacks, and torment from people who know him and can't believe he'd do something like that. Well I think the world should wake up, cause these bastards out there are good at hiding there true side, other wise they'd be in jail not parading around our streets and having jobs as respected and trusted people in the community. I've finally learn't you can't trust anyone- and that means anyone- sadly this is what has become of our society. I think why do I wanna keep on living if all i'm gunna get is being hurt.
em :(