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my body is failing

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Written by esp 15. May 2006 10:36 PM

hi all well it seems that i'm still not free from the physical effects of depression, or what what may be an undiagnosed illness. Yep and that seems to get me more depressed. My doctor recently increased my efexor up to 225mg. And still my physical problems add to my daily stressors, i'm just sick of having fevers, night sweats, fatigue, and now i'm lactating- yep and they don't know why- and no I haven't had a baby or have ever. I remain a mystery to the doctors out there, as I see specialist after specialist. I just want an answer- I just can't continue life being sick- especially when I don't know why. And hello i'm producing milk and haven't even got a baby- how weird is that- and annoying and uncomfortable. If I didn't have the support from friends i'm afraid I probably wouldn't be here, I would of gave up!

My doctor told me today that my body is failing, shutting down, and she said we need to get to the buttom of things otherwise, my body will go into complete failure as it's causeing way to much stress. Wow i'm only 23, and my body is ready to pack it's bags and leave. Gees what am I to do?

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Comments from the community:

Hi Esp,
It must be pretty scary when you have unidentified physical illnesses. I lactated for no reason a few years ago . I wasn;t on ADs and it only lasted for a week. It wigged me out at the time ..made me just feel really really freaky but it did go and I have never had it or anything like it since .so maybe it will pass hone..
Being 23 also means you have a lot of time for a lot of good things to happen... try to remember that.. and I wish I could offer you more but I am pretty flat and tired myself..

I do send you a little bluebird of happiness which I hope finds your shoulder to settle on princess.
Good night
xxx
Buckskin

Written by badskin, 16. May 2006 12:03 AM

hey em,
doesnt sound as if the docs have worked out whats wrong with you yet.. no good. i hope they work it out soon, from what you've said doesnt seem all that nice.. its good to see that your still battling along. how are things going with the police and all that? I hope that the docs can work out whats going on soon for you. last thing you would need is for you body to fall in a heap physically.
i finally stopped talking about it, and confronted my siter.. didnt go the way expected, but what does? i finally got rid of toby too.. So finally facing all these things has helped. just still struggle with it.. I hope that things are going better for you now mentally.. thanks for comment!!
love manda

Written by detergent, 16. May 2006 08:08 PM

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