neally a year to the day
A page in the diary "The S**t in my life"
Written by esp 30. Dec 2005 10:57 AM
Hi all, well it's a neally a year to the day I almost died. It was in february, so I guess there's a bit of time left. It was from now though that I started starving myself again as I went into a major relapse of my anorexia. By February 14th I was hospitalised- 4 days after my 22nd b'day- a birthday which I can hardly remember due to being so sick. By the time I was admitted to hospital I was very unwell- could barely stand- my heart was failing and if it wasn't for the caring people around me and the caring nurses and my doctor. I would not be writing this today. I thank God everyday that they were there to save me. Cause although each day is tough to get through, I value each moment I am on this earth. Of course shit has happened to me, but I've got so much I want to give the world, so much yet I want to achieve. I am obviously still here for a reason, so i've gotta do my best at giving back to others what they have given me.
I also thank all of you for being here on my down days, It hasn't been easy getting through each day, but knowing all of you are here makes it that little bit easier. I am sorry I haven't replied to your posts as much as i'd like to, but I've been in one of those states where I just can't reply. But am thinking of you all allways through these hard times in your lives. Take care. love em