still low, can't keep up with my hectic life! & Poem
A page in the diary "The S**t in my life"
Written by esp 7. Nov 2005 08:05 AM
Hi all,
Well still just hanging on by a thread, life's tough at the moment for me, as it is probably for many of you. There just doesn't seem to be much of the year left and I have so much to do and cram into it. Sometimes I feel like i'd never reach the end. Still can't find the light at the end of the tunnel, and when I think I do see it, it is meerly a hallucination. I have had a little more sleep thanks to the sleeping medication- stilnox. But yeah I know I can't allow myself to become dependant on it, because it is only a short term sollution- I still wake, just not as many times.
I have one assignment left to do for uni thankgoodness, can't believe it was 8 at the start of this semester. I'm still off placement sick but hopefully I can go back by thursday. Well I best be off, go to have blood tests this morning before I head home.
Take care all, love em
Here's a poem I wrote
Full of sadness and pain
I can no longer take the strain
The emotional scars have dug in deep
Which leave me lying in a heap
My eyes are sore from crying
Sometimes I wish I was dying
So I could leave this hurt
That leaves me feeling like dirt
Feeling so very stuck
Oh how much it does suck
I feel scared and alone
The future is unknown
My life has changed forever
So the pain will last forever
No matter how much I allow
No one can help me now