I´´m not happy at all to confess that
Written by
robbiekaye
5. Apr 2005 07:03 PM
I´´m not happy at all to confess that So many of my days have been wasted due to what Winston Churchill referred to as the black dog.I only succumbed to medication after my husband at the time threatened to have me locked up.I was contemplating ending the darkness in my life. HOWEVER ..I know that there are things that can help.EXERCISE does..less alcohol does..diet and vitamins can also help..recently I stopped prozac but the all consuming darkness returned.I think my probs are biological aand circumstancial and I have to , at this moment take prozac.have tried other antiD´´s but this has worked the best. I am also a creative woman who´´s creativity seems to be on vacation (sadly)however a yoga instructor told me a bout a book called the Artists Way..I´´m sure some of you have heard about it.I recommend it and each morning I do the ´´morning pages´´..a great way to vent. I´´m about to put on my walking shoes and step it out and not return until I feel better. Its always better dwelling on a solution rather than the problem, hey??Remember, where there´´s a problem, there IS a solution and what works for one may not work for another, but then again, just might..cheers ..warmly Robbiekaye
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Written by
dontworrybehappy
8. Sep 2005 03:20 PM
robbiekaye
Hi! You talked a little about blackdog. i heard this reference not long ago and began writing many poems in which blackdog constantly hunted me down and left me very dark. On the better days I was able to picture and write about black dog being chained and unable to come near me. Now I try to visualize my power as the master of an animal,telling blackdog to get down, leave me alone and seeing blackdog chained and behind a huge , strong wire fence. There is no way he can hurt me and I can summon this power whenever I want if I try hard enough.
It is also good to put all of your negative energy aside to focus on a task.No matter how small the task, you must concentrate on it until it is finished.
Blackdog only returns when I let down my guard and depression creeps in.
Then I have to assert my control first and then exert self control to give myself a task[ hopefully pleasant] that will distract me frome my negative thoughts into positive action. Hope your days improve. :)
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Written by
robbiekaye
18. Sep 2005 02:59 PM
Thankyou to DON´´TWORRYBEHAPPY for your comment. How good does it feel when some-one goes out of their way to help another. This morning I battled the blueness within by making myself look at and be grateful for the blue cloudless sky, a beautiful place to live and I think,most importantly, acceptance of myself.I know we are all individuals so I will be happy with ME and change what I can but not beat myself up for who I am now..Many wonderful events have happened to me, for that I am grateful and must quell anxious thoughts with that wisdom I´´ve earned and gained. cheers...
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You're definitely not alone
Written by
Jewels
21. May 2007 02:55 PM
Hey Robbiekaye,
I so hear where you're coming from. I'm a creative woman too, and I know how unfair it feels when you're not only depressed but you have a massive creative block too...and...you feel unsupported by the person who is supposed to be the one to help you through things!
You sound like a brave, loving person to me and I totally support you in your morning writings or keeping up with the meds or whatever you need to do to feel well. Answers to all the other stuff will come in due course.
Stay well, JEWELS
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