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Hi, I don´´t mean to di

Written by Anonymous 10. Jan 2003 05:59 PM

Hi,
I don´´t mean to discriminate against the older generation but I was wondering if I could start up a topic for young people, I´´m 22 now but have been living with depression for about 7years, I think depression is different when you are younger , I have read a few "my stories " and I would be interesed to talk to you people, I have not put up a story yet, I don´´t really won´´t too, the computer gives me a headache after a while, so if your reading this please tell me what you think ,about anything!peace

Hi Scatman. I´´m 19 years old and hav

Written by Fernie 13. Jan 2003 07:52 PM

Hi Scatman. I´´m 19 years old and have been diagnosed with depression. Several of my friends have as well, but here on the site I mainly come into contact with older people and I find it hard to relate their depression with mine. I think it´´s a great idea to start a debate for young people, I´´d like to share ideas with other people my age. I hope more people write back, is there anything specific that you want to talk about? from Fernie

Fernie, Cool , I didn´´t real

Written by Anonymous 25. Jan 2003 12:51 PM

Fernie,
Cool , I didn´´t realise I had a message from you until I looked today, I just feished writing in the chat room forum about the benifits of Tai Chi which is what I am learning at the moment to calm me down, IT WORKS, breath in breatgh out breath in breath out, I never thought that could be so relaxing when done probarly, I remeber being so stoned in the past that I used to forget to breatht(der!) totally , I used to have to remind myself , but thankfully my body and brain are repairing from using various drugs, it´´s been about a year now with no drugs, but I´´m finding it hard to find friends, part of my depression comes from being loney, I used to hang around bad arses ,and finding good natured friends is proving difficult, Iused too have good freinds but about half way through High School I changed, I still can´´t put my finger on the exacat problem, but anyway things went down hill at such an alarming rate I didn´´t even notice it and found myself out on the streets at 16yrs though it was before that when I suffered my anxeity attack, I was down down about the world I started freaking out and next thing I know I woke up with a mixture of blood and sweat seeping through my forhead, I knew somthing deep had just happened, and ever since then i´´ve been hearing voices in my head, pretty freaky. But I´´m glad to say thing are mending up, I´´m finding new teqnieucs to get me through the day. Sorry, I didn´´t mean to bore you, it just came out, thats a little bit about me, I don´´t want to put you to sleep.Anyway thing are now on the mend but I´´m finding as I find clarity I find somthing disturbing about myself, but I suppose it is better to reconise that somthings wrong than to ignor it so everything is cool,as long as I don´´t go backwards I´´m not complaining. So do you have many freinds? do you find it easy to talk to people? Are u studing ? working? wat r your plans for the future?
peace fernie, scatman

Hey there scatman. Tomorrow I´´m leavi

Written by Fernie 25. Jan 2003 04:07 PM

Hey there scatman. Tomorrow I´´m leaving Christchurch to move to Melbourne to go to university there. I have done 2 years here, and this is where i got depressed. Only 1 of my friends also went onto uni, the others went to places further away. Cos I was still living at home, I never made new friends at uni and became obsessive about my study and getting high marks. So, loneliness and my studyload is what contributed to my depression (although I have a family history of it) and I´´m hoping that living in the halls in melbourne will be great. Everyone else at uni seemed to make friends and have lots of social activities, and I didn´´t, which made me feel very isolated and left out. It took me 2 years to realise that this was the problem, but I´´m not sure if I would be depressed anyway and it is convenient to blame uni. Anyway, I´´m moving tomorrow, so next time I post a message I´´ll be in melbourne!! Take care scatman, from Fernie

hi im a bit younger than you guys but i think we a

Written by dani 25. Jan 2003 10:29 PM

hi im a bit younger than you guys but i think we are in the same boat. i would really love to talk to someone who knows what it is like instead of sympathetic family and friends who nod and smile, hug you politely and then the ones who say are drugs really the answer i dont even think my mum understands none of my friends do they treat like im fragile and if im having a bad day they smother me i know everyone means well but no one understands how hard it is please write back and tell me how u feel or that u r getting better

Wassup, Fernie that sounds great! you go girl

Written by Anonymous 30. Jan 2003 07:20 PM

Wassup,
Fernie that sounds great! you go girl!!!!, get into everything man, your gonna have a great time!! WAt have you chosen to study? have you been to OZ before? Work is a prime objective of mine at the moment , I have part time jobs but they hardley pay the bills, I´´m saving cause I want to study next year and Sydney is really expensive.I was thinking about getting a cat to keep me company (and amused) but they cost $160 from the pound!! I should have catnapped one when I used to work there, bummer.
Dani pleased to meet you , how did you find the site?was it suggested to you? Are you seeing consellers or shrinks? I suspect you aren´´t using drugs. As far as depression drugs go, I have been to parinod about using them to give u any advice, althought I used prozac fro a whil but it did nothing, I wrote a bit bout wat I think under "drug pushers" debate. I recon will power is the best drug of all!!!It sounds great that you have friends that really care about you man ! ! you sound like your going though a rough patch, I´´m sure time will tell,If you be more pacific on wats buggin you someone here might be able to help out,

I will leave you with this crude remark: ´´If the world didn´´t suc we´´d all fall off´´,

PEACE PEACE PEACE PEACE PEACE PEACE PEACE PEACE

Hey guys, I think it´´s a great

Written by Ren 11. Feb 2003 03:11 PM

Hey guys,

I think it´´s a great idea to have a chat between the ´´young people´´ I have just turned 23 and have been suffering for 3 years after being the victim of a hit and run accident by my ´´friend´´. Medication doesn´´t seem to work for me and I have just recently told my doctor I have had enough of pill popping and would like to look for other ways to ´´fix myself´´ If you guys have any ideas let me know because I am currently trying to avoid another trip to a psyc unit so anything is worth a try. Scatman, you said in a previous message about your panic attacks, can you control them more easily now? It takes me an extra hour everyday to get out of the house to work because I start my day with a panic attack and violent vomiting and another not so nice release of body fluids! some days if I am lucky I miss the panic attack and just vomitand other.
I apologise for speaking only about myself but I dont know much about you. Anyway I hope this finds all readers the best they have ever felt and I hope to hear from you all soon. Ren

Gday Ren! Welcome to the "debate"> That vo

Written by Anonymous 12. Feb 2003 04:12 PM

Gday Ren!
Welcome to the "debate"> That voimting ect before work sounds bad man, (wat job do you have). No I don´´t have attacks any more ,(thaanks god), but I still suffer from voices from that era. What is your attention span like? If it´´s a good one, I would try TAi chi or yoga to relax before work, Hit and Run by a so called friend, thats alfull! Have you made new friends yet? How do u get along at work with depression? I did a days work today, I started of really well(well I thought so) but about lunch time ,I was really ready to get out of there!!!!!!!!!!! Hope we can talk later, peace man ,

Hi all. I´´ve just settled in Melbourn

Written by Fernie 12. Feb 2003 05:18 PM

Hi all. I´´ve just settled in Melbourne so I haven´´t had the opportunity to post lately. Everything seems to be going well so far, and I think my depression is getting better, although I wonder if this is only a temporary respite. I feel like I´´m just waiting for something bad to happen and then I´´ll just sink back into depression again. Welcome to the site Ren, and I hope everyone is doing ok. from Fernie

Hi everybody, Scatman could you give me some basi

Written by Ren 24. Feb 2003 09:48 AM

Hi everybody, Scatman could you give me some basic outline of tai chi? would be appreciated. I work for the federal government (a senator) and my concentration has its moments so i would like to be able to focus on strengthening my mental alertness. I hope you like melbourne fernie its a great place.
Somedays scatman I feel like running away from work before I even get in the door! sometimes I do. I have dropped my hours back to week on week off just so I can prepare myself for the next week of work.

High Ren, Tai Chi is abou

Written by Anonymous 7. Mar 2003 05:37 PM

High Ren,
Tai Chi is about moving and breathing in uinsen, Chi is like a useen force that is everywhere we can feel it if we want, Tai chi is about using that force with movements , it comes from martial arts, but only in theory.
U should check it out could be just the thing for you, U work for a senotor>? Wow , how did u score that being so young? Hope u are well man ....pEACE

Hi! Do you mind me? I hope Im not too youn

Written by bush_baby 7. Mar 2003 08:06 PM

Hi! Do you mind me?

I hope Im not too young
I´´m nearly 15.

I want to say stuff
I don´´t know what and how.

Is anyone here still at school?

Yo BB I tink dani goes to school! but he

Written by Anonymous 13. Mar 2003 07:11 PM

Yo BB I tink dani goes to school! but hey u can talk to us all here, I grew up in the bush.......pEACE

I am in my mid-twenties and have sufferred depress

Written by sharls 15. Mar 2003 03:12 AM

I am in my mid-twenties and have sufferred depression on and off since I was 14. I have currently been on pills this last time since March last year. This is my longest stint on pills. I would like to say to the teenagers that adolescence was the pits!! A majority of people have a very very hard time during the teenage years and it does pass and does get better. I know of several people whose depression left them in their late teens. However, if things do recur or get really bad then seek help. This time the pills saved my life, a number of times. I beg people to go and see their GP and use antidepressants until you can find other alternatives or until you feel better. I began using a lot of street drugs for 7 years and it only compounds the problem. It is not the solution and it is much safer to use prescribed drugs. I have been alcohol dependent for too long and am now in consistent therapy. If you get therapy I think it is so hard but important to keep at it. There is a light at the end of the tunnel and you will see it eventually. Anyway, I am now also taking Antabuse for alcohol dependency and have been sober for 2 days. Yes I know that is probably really pathetic to some of you but we all end up in different situations. Well I hope I have not sounded too much like a teacher or preacher but to me these are important things. So Ciao and feel free to reply or ask me any questions.
Cheers
Sharlene

Sharles, Good luck wit the alcohol

Written by Anonymous 21. Mar 2003 12:24 PM

Sharles,

Good luck wit the alcohol prob, Youy sound like you goin fine, peace to you

Hi there, I haven´´t really pos

Written by ninjasquirrel 22. Mar 2003 12:28 AM

Hi there,

I haven´´t really posted here much before tonight - I´´d better introduce myself, ja? I´´m 19, 2nd year at uni, and living in Melb Uni halls (fernie, which college are you in? I´´m at JCH - I´´m assuming you´´re going to Melbourne Uni). I´´ve been depressed for a few years now, but only went to get help at the end of last year, and I´´m really glad I did. Fernie, I totally sympathise with pressures from uni and so forth, it nearly sent me right off the rails last year. Scatman, have you heard of reiki? It´´s all about working with Chi energy and stuff. I´´m not really sure how to describe it, but it´´s good.

Peace and love,

NS

NIja Squrriel, Man I was a big fa

Written by Anonymous 24. Mar 2003 06:46 PM

NIja Squrriel,

Man I was a big fan of the turtles , I don´´t no if squerreils would have the sam effect, hav´´in said that , I remember watching a show anout mad squeirels of an American town going crazy and biting everyone that came near them.Reiki yes I have tried it was alful my brother did it and probably not with his best intentions at heart, I think it would be a good idea to try it but perhaphs withoput a famiily member, wat did u think about it NS? Wat are you studying at Uni , are u using Med? does it effect your ability to study? PEACE YO

Hi there, I kinda liked reiki, but the envi

Written by ninjasquirrel 29. Mar 2003 07:36 AM

Hi there,

I kinda liked reiki, but the environment in which it was practiced was fairly clinical. I also like the idea of being able to do this weird and wonderful stuff - though I acknowledge that it isn´´t for everyone. ´´Tis kinda freaky, ja?

I study Software engineering/Commerce. I take Avanza, which doesn´´t affect my ability to study much at all. It used to make me drowsy, but the side effects disappeared after two weeks. I still have to fight myself to get anything done, but it´´s bearable now.

How do people you encounter react to your depression? And who knows about your condition? This confuses me - I want people to know that I´´m not being antisocial because I dislike them, but ...

Hey everyone - Ninjasquirrel, I go to Monash Uni s

Written by Fernie 4. Apr 2003 03:13 PM

Hey everyone - Ninjasquirrel, I go to Monash Uni sorry, but I guess we would have the same pressures regardless, and it sounds like we´´re about the same age. I thought I would be better now that I´´ve solved the obvious problem by changing into a course I like, but I´´ve started crying, sleeping during the day and watching TV early in the morning, and drinking too much again, so I guess the depression has come back. Perhaps it is a chronic problem? Anyway, hope everyone is reasonably OK, from Fernie

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Written by Krypt 5. Apr 2003 05:12 PM

Hi Krypt - what do you study at Monash? I´&a

Written by Fernie 5. Apr 2003 05:22 PM

Hi Krypt - what do you study at Monash? I´´m arts. Anyway just a quick note to say hi and welcome to the site, from Fernie

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Written by Krypt 5. Apr 2003 05:37 PM

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Hi, my name is Jacqui, and I´´m 42 yea

Written by jacqui 6. Apr 2003 01:51 AM

Hi, my name is Jacqui, and I´´m 42 year´´s old, I have a 12 year old daughter, she start´´s high school next year. We live in QLD, and love it, originally from NSW. I, on the other hand come from the U.K. I have a partner, we have been together for 6 year´´s now, we have our little tiff´´s, and yes, they usually are about money, family problem´´s, we used to have argument´´s about my estranged hubby, but now, he has mellowed, and we can now communicate with him alot better. I have already been told I suffer from anxiety, and also depression, I´´am on medication. My problem mainly come´´s from my dad, who refuses to accept my partner, he is under the impression my partner is a bad influence on my daughter and I, I, however don´´t. I also get very worried whenever I get any medical test´´s done, alway´´s wondering if I have some kind of illness. Each time I get the result´´s back, it´´s alway´´s clear, so why then, do I get so scared, I know I´´am pretty healthy, but, I still get worried. I alway´´s get scared that one day my result´´s will come back bad, as there is alway´´s that chance it will happen. Everytime I get my result´´s back, I feel a sence of relief, but then, if I need to get something else checked out, I start feeling worried again, it happen´´s everytime, without fail. When I was alot younger, it didn´´t happen to me, but now I´´m in my 40´´s, it´´s worrying me like crazy. My doctor´´s tell me I have nothing to worry about, I know they are right, I have seen the result´´s for myself, but still, I worry like crazy. I also found out lately, my mum now suffer´´s from depression. Even though she would never admit to it, she is very unhappy in her 50 year´´s of marriage. I hate the way my dad treat´´s my mum. Can you help me, PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hi, Welcome Krypt! Fernie, I hope things

Written by ninjasquirrel 6. Apr 2003 03:41 AM

Hi,

Welcome Krypt!
Fernie, I hope things improve for you. I dont´´ want to pontificate, but try not to sleep during the day - doing that really screwed me over last semester, I missed heaps of lectures and tutes, but didn´´t have the energy to catch up again. Also, it does get pretty lonely in the wee hours of the morning when noone´´s around (though televangelists are kinda funny to watch. There´´s this woman with a husky voice and a sparkly suit that used to be on).

NS

Welcome Jacqui, Sorry to hear about your si

Written by ninjasquirrel 6. Apr 2003 04:41 PM

Welcome Jacqui,

Sorry to hear about your situation. Have you spoken to your Mum about what you think? Sometimes, especially when you don´´t feel so good, it´´s easy to presume someone will react in a certain way when you tell them something.

Hang in there,

Ninjasquirrel

Hi, i´´m 22 i really agree with scatma

Written by spannar 9. Apr 2003 04:51 AM

Hi, i´´m 22 i really agree with scatman on the tai chi thing, not that i´´ve tried it, but i think meditation, yoga any relaxation stuff is really good 4 depression sufferers...

Hi Dani, I know how you feel. So many people in my

Written by spannar 9. Apr 2003 05:01 AM

Hi Dani, I know how you feel. So many people in my life are sympathetic and all and say the anti-depessants won´´t solve anything, yada yada, but what would they know! When I went on medication without my parents knowing they were really shocked about it. Mum and Dad both think that I don´´t need to be on medication, but they always change their minds. I go on medication and it makes me into a sombie, then mum complains that I´´m not myself. Sometimes I don´´t know who to listen to. Now I am listening to myself. I know myself better than anyone else. I made the decision to stop taking the medication and things are getting better.

Good on ya Spannar. What´´s helped me

Written by ninjasquirrel 9. Apr 2003 05:58 AM

Good on ya Spannar. What´´s helped me the most is working on my mindset, so that I don´´t fall as often, or as far (but meds have helped some).

Most people have no idea how much energy it takes to do the things that they take for granted, like socialising, doing homework, getting out of bed, eating even. They take one look at what´´s on the surface and judge us from that. Depressed people are far stronger than most people realise.

Most of the time I try to keep up a sunny and cheerful demeanor, firstly because I believe that ´´if you don´´t feel like it, fake it until you do´´, and secondly (and most importantly) not taking life, and myself, too seriously has been the main thing that has helped me survive day to day life. And there´´s this girl here at college who sees this and judges me as shallow, unintellegent and immature. She talks down to me, and doesn´´t take my opinions seriously. I don´´t think that it has occured to her that a lassaiz-faire (sp?) attitude doesn´´t preclude intellegence, or that there is more to life than academia. How much strength, maturity and depth of character it takes for me just to make it through the day. Or that sometimes when I wake up, I have to remind myself of my reasons for going on. But I do it, and I feel that as a result I live more consciously -
I know my reasons for doing what I do, because it has to be worthy of my energy and effort.

Why this person´´s opinion matter so much to me? It´´s because she is someone I would have admired before I became depressed. She is (often) nice, and is very very academically intellegent. And so was I, and I prized my academic smarts above any other quality I posessed, and looked down on people I saw as ´´dumb´´. Then I became forgetful inarticulate. When my grades fell and I was no longer winning awards, scholarships and praise, I had to rethink my attitude towards myself and others. Work out why I was a worthwhile person even though I was failing uni. As a result I know that if I can feel happy, and *live* rather than exist, in spite of what I have been through (and I feel that that is a worthy end in itself) then I have achieved something far greater than a good test score.

Sorry, that was terribly long, and I´´m not sure if it had a point or not. But I feel better having said it.

Ninjasquirrel (aka Liah)

I think you said it best " Now I

Written by Anonymous 10. Apr 2003 01:42 PM

I think you said it best " Now I´´m listening to myself"...People always give advice but you should always listen to yourself first, reminds me of a P.school song"my bodys my body body but mine you run your own body let me run mine", ....Big Gday to all you scoolies, Nija you gotta stop peole worrying you, a famous french author once wrote "other people are hell", maybe he´´s right? .......I´´ve stopped going to conselling as far as I can see ( and I´´ve been going since eary teens) it´´s just peolpe with over sized egos trying to act superiour, this last guy was trying to tell me he was the people in my dreams trying to help me!!!! What a d*5ckhead!!!!!!!

I heard about another teen suicide last week , the adults all say the same thing "it was the drugs" f%#k I could rip there heads off, it´´s about "why" people using the drugs, ........it´´s time us young people get together and work it out, all the same thing will happen to the next generation and so on, theres no need for kids to have no friends when thereds kids out there that are in the same way, I belive more than ever that that the new times seperate us all, but give us the impression that we are closer ie´´ internet ect ect , truth is we are slipping apart, .......... if anyone has ideas post them NOW, we can work sumthin out right here right now!, post your impressions, thoughts........PEACe

Hi All, thanks for your comments :) really appreci

Written by spannar 14. Apr 2003 02:44 PM

Hi All, thanks for your comments :) really appreciate it! I know what you mean Scatman, people around us have to start thinking, hey why are so many people in our society depressed???, smoking their asses off, taking drugs, turning to alcohol etc.... something is seriously wrong.... My parents (Mum in particular) gives me shit for smoking, what she doesn´´t think is ´´Why is her daughter smoking???´´ Why are people so many people turning to drugs, smokes and god nos what else. They are obviously in a pretty bad state and need serious help. I´´m 22yrs old now, quiet person and have always lived my life in the state that I should be helping others. By that got me no where. I forgot to ´´take care of ME!!!!´´ Part of me getting better has been to change my ´´self talk´´ into really POSITIVE STUFF. Cause I´´m always putting myself down, putting a lot of pressure on myself. i´´ve realised a lot of stuff recently like people can´´t read my mind. That might sound silly but for me, family, my friends and many others have not really known how i´´ve been feeling all these years. I tended to always bottled my problems inside and not tell anyone. These feelings just ate away at my self-esteem, my ability to do anything really. it was hard 4 me to study cause I was always caring about my Dad´´s problems and I´´d make them mine, care about Mum´´s probs and make them mine, grandma dying etc... It was a pretty shit state to be in. Anywayssss,,, that´´s my story.... Remember ´´take one day at a time,´´ ´´look after yourself at all costs!!!!!!´´ Take care everybody!!!!!

spannar

Hi everyone, Never been on this site before

Written by Jenny J 19. Jul 2003 10:52 PM

Hi everyone,

Never been on this site before so not exactly sure what to write... I think it´´s a great idea to set up a place for younger people to chat about their experiences - not sure about everyone else but I find the topic very hard to talk to with others. Have been back on meds for almost two years now - the latest being Effexor. I´´ve been trying to get off them for the past two months but am finding it extremely difficult - getting severe nausea and disorientation. Has anyone else experienced this? If so does it get any better? Sorry to ramble on about myself - just needed a release.

Hi Jenny, welcome to the debate! I´´ve

Written by spannar 21. Jul 2003 05:00 PM

Hi Jenny, welcome to the debate! I´´ve also been on Effexor too in the past. However the only side affects I had with that drug was problems with the muscles in the back of my eyes. Sounds weird huh... It sounds like this particular drug doesn´´t really agree with you. I´´m currently taking St John´´s Wort which seems to help me. I think you should talk to your doctor about the affects of this drug. Good luck with getting off the meds!

Hi guys! Great idea about forming a young chat gr

Written by Anita-Marie 19. Aug 2003 09:53 PM

Hi guys! Great idea about forming a young chat group! I just got onto this site and thought to give it a go. My name is Nina and I am 19. It turns out I have been depressed for about four months now and I suffer anxiety aswell. It´´s very strange how it happened but ever since I´´ve found my vision is very dull and it won´´t go away. I am on Zoloft(antidepressant). I am feeling a lot better, I no longer cry for nothing and I don´´t feel like committing suicide anymore. I hope to recover completely in time. I hope I didn´´t bore anyone thought to say a little about myself.

Hi Everyone, you are all an inspiration to todays

Written by DoggieLover 18. Sep 2003 11:47 AM

Hi Everyone, you are all an inspiration to todays society!!! Good Luck in your conquest to conquer depression!!!
Well I am a 23year old female who was diagnosed with major depression when I was 21 and ever since then I have tried numerous medications and none of them seemed to help me. I have now been diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder(BPD) and have been told that my Depression is secondary to the BPD. I see my mental health case manager once a week and I also am getting taught DBT, which is some form of therapy for BPD, because I am not good at my emotion regulation and comtrolling my impulsiveness and don´´t know how to cope with stressful situations. These are the things they are teaching me. I have nearly committed suicide a couple of times but each time have been saved by the medical profession and at times I am not happy about that...
I am not on any medication at present but think I need to start taking a mood stabiliser because when I work I almost loose my cool and go off, and I can´´t control that, it also doesnt help feeling horrible and depressed and cant get out of bed and suffer from headaches.
I have scars from self mutilation so I have to cover them up at work which is hard because they are on my arms... Anyway hope I havent bored anyone!!!*

Jen_e_fur 20 yrs old Hi guys, it´´

Written by jen_e_fur 9. Nov 2004 05:52 PM

Jen_e_fur 20 yrs old
Hi guys, it´´s kinda nice to hear some comments from people similar to my age. I live in a small town and really don´´t have a way to connect with people my age, with my problems.
I spent last year in a group home aimed a lot at people with long term mental illness and I often found myself confused at where I belonged. Was I mentally ill, normal? Is there an in between? I think there is. I think there are people who can live a somewhat happy life while dealing with there depression but I just wonder sometimes. Are we doomed to a life of being ´´depression´´?

Hi all, I haven´´t posted for quite a

Written by Fernie 10. Nov 2004 12:21 PM

Hi all, I haven´´t posted for quite a while & it´´s probably not a good sign that I´´m back. This last semester I´´ve been really struggling with my studies again because I can´´t concentrate, can´´t think & can´´t get up out of bed. I know that it´´s due to some uncertainty about my future, as I´´m 21 & next year is my last at uni, but it frustrates me that as soon as something stressful happens, I completely shut down. However, I still manage to get the things done that I need to, so nobody even notices, & I don´´t really like asking for help or approaching lecturers etc for extensions. Sometimes I feel like I am doomed to continue being depressed, and sometimes it would just be easier if I could show some symptoms so that people would understand. Does anyone else have the problem that it´´s all in your head, not in your behaviour, so that nobody understands because you appear to be functioning normally? Fernie

Jen_e_fur Hi Fernie, I have to say yes I kn

Written by jen_e_fur 11. Nov 2004 05:13 PM

Jen_e_fur

Hi Fernie, I have to say yes I know exactly what you mean. I went through many years of depression where I could act just fine but inside I felt like I was dying. I actually am glad that I´´m not the only one. I could figure out why I felt so bad but didn´´t seem to show it. Maybe if I did people would see how I felt. When I finally went to the doctor and got medication I told a few people. They were surprised. Somehow all the people closest to me had no idea that I was depressed. And even then, when people knew I still didn´´t act any different.

Things have recently changed in my behavior though. I got suicidal and ended up living in a group home. Being on the edge like that changed me and since then I do behave differently if I´´am depressed. I can shake and cry and stay in bed, but still if I think people are judging me I will try to act as ´´normal´´ as possible. I don´´t know why it´´s like this. Not being able to show people how we feel but I imagine it may have something to do with feeling people will judge. Well, hope I helped at least a little. Your not alone

Written by lauren300589 15. Aug 2005 09:27 PM

Hi, I´´m 16 and was diagnosed with depression a few weeks back im due to start counselling soon and prolly meds after that. I was also told I have polycystic ovary syndrome the same day I was diagnosed with depression, I´´m very much over school and dred going everyday it´´s even harder for me because I have exams this year and the next so I lose my concerntration often in calss and feel like the pressure is getting too much. Lately I´´ve been sleeping for hours on end the other night I got home from work at 6pm and didnt wake up until 6:30am the next, I don´´t want to be like I am anymore but I can´´t see any light at the end of the tunnel. I feel like I´´m judged everywhere I go and I don´´t want to speak to anyone about me because of this I know psych´´s and counsellors are trained not to be judgemental but they still ahve their opinions even if they don´´t show them and voice them. I´´m so sick of friends and randoms at school judging me wen I walk into class I wear glasses and supposedly that mean I´´m really smart, I do ok in ym subjects and really well in one, Accounting, but lately because of everything I´´ve been doing horrible and when people in my class ask me my results and find out I did bad they say things like "i must of done really bad then´´ but they beat me now and I get those stupid stereotypical looks and I´´ve just had enough of everyone and everything. That´´s why i´´m sleeping a lot now, to lock myself away from everyone to be alone and listen to my ipod and cry as much as I want to without anyone judging me. I want to be left alone, to be taken some place nice and peaceful like a meadow where it´´s sunny and a little place for me to live and lots of books to read and I cna live a happy life, all by myself.

Written by lauren300589 15. Aug 2005 09:34 PM

Fernie I know exactly how you feel I go on like nothigns changed but everythign has and no one notices me I´´m just someone else on the stairs or in the class im just one of thousands at school and one of billions in the world!

Hi Everyone

Written by Josqyn 29. Nov 2005 01:38 AM

I just signed up here a few minutes ago, and was reading through some of the posts and thought I might put my two cents worth in.

I never thought so many ppl would be on this site. I'm finding it a bit overwhelming, and I'm not sure if I'll keep coming back to chat. I'll let ya know a lil about me first off (seems like a lot of ppl are doing that).

I'm 22, and first tried to commit suicide when I was 12. I've OD'd on meds about five times since that. I don't ever remember being happy growing up..seems like its my destiny to feel miserable forever. No matter who I talk to, what meds I'm on, what I change in my life. I'm starting to think there's no answer for me. I used to think everyone can be helped...I'm thinking maybe I'm wrong. I saw a post about ppl hurtin themselves, and I understand why they do it. I've done it too. Cuttin myself mostly, but also burning and putting out cigarettes on my arms and stuff.

Umm...I'm not really sure what to say...I'm hoping someone out there will have something nice to say so I feel welcome on this site, I could really do with talking to people who understand where I'm coming from. So yeah...reply to me here, or my email address is Josqynn@hotmail.com...I'd love to hear from you guys.

Thx for listening.

Anyone here a young mum suffering psychomotor?

Written by kristoni 24. Oct 2006 04:19 PM

Hi everyone,
Im new here and am a young mum (21) of two children one 4years and a 2 year old i had committed suicide once nearly did it if they didnt find what i took, i was on life support for 2 days i have had pschomotor retard for about 6 years tried again to commit sucide but didnt find any drugs that could do the job. so now im 21 and two kids later, were all homeless because i got stuck into some hard drugs thinking they were making me feel better i got limited help and back on anti- depressants but not hopeful anyone got any idea on what can help me though this cause those antis are looking really good at the moment

Anyone here a young mum suffering psychomotor?

Written by kristoni 24. Oct 2006 04:20 PM

Anyone here a young mum suffering psychomotor?

Written by kristoni 24. Oct 2006 04:20 PM

hi...

Written by me_me 24. Oct 2006 07:36 PM

i have had clinical depression for about 3 years (according to the doc's) and mild since i was about 10... im only 17 and i agree about it being hard for youger people... i dont really want to re-write my story at the moment though sorry

Bla

Written by zwethinkweiz 19. Jun 2008 02:28 PM

Im 17 years old, no idea how long i've been depressed, but finally worked up the courage to tell my parents about 3 days ago.
I (like lauren300589) go to school and am percieved as being very intelligent, however, lately my grades have slipped and I have found it almost impossible to get out of bed to go to school.(i have missed school for the last week)
I have now begun throwing up almost every time I eat.

But yeah, I now have to decide today meds or shrink.. or both. It annoys me that I go to the doctor, not knowing what to do, and he makes me decide... I don't know whats best for me.

yepp

Written by Awoods 24. Aug 2008 02:48 PM

hey i am 16, i just read zwethinkweiz post and found that i can relate to it a whole lot. i diagnosed in may with clinical depression and first put on Zoloft, but my dad got anrgy when he found out so i got put on Cipramil, i am finding it hard to tell if its working or not, cos i went overseas for a month and felt awesome when i came back but now sort of sinking again, so not sure whats going on.
i find it so hard to attend my classes and do my work and like zwethinkweiz everyone thinks i am so happy and smart, but i am struggling with both of those....
xx

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